Friday, September 02, 2011
Feeling like karma just gave us a big kick in the teeth. After slowly pulling out finger nails for a prolonged period. Trying to keep from just shutting down. It's easy when things go bad to start feeling sorry for myself. "Why are we being punished? Are we bad people?" I know it's not right, and I'm trying to avoid it. Financial stress is just wearing me down. Wearing me out. Whittling away at me. DH was asking if I wanted any special food. Smores? Brats? That special peppered bacon you like so much? I told him I'd be fine, I just needed to process the news, I don't need food to try and fix it. (Yay me, btw. Big step.) He told me he just wanted to fix what he could how he knew how. I need to go for a walk. Think it through. Or maybe just not think and listen to my audiobook. Check out mentally for awhile. Not sure yet.
I have my husband. I have my son. We have our health. We have our house. We have working cars. We have jobs to go to. Everything else is icing. We have a good life. An easy life? No. But we have good life. We are not the first people to go w/out AC. So what if it's near record breaking heat right now? It's just for a few more days and then they're predicting 70s and 80s. We're actually lucky. AC went out in Sept. Not June. Not July. Not August. Furnace should still work. Maybe we can save for the next...8 months?...until spring to try to get a new unit. Not that there's much to save. Maybe a tax refund?
Pretend I'm enjoying my vacation while it lasts.
Go camping later today.
One thing at a time. Do what you can. What you have control over.
Life is good. It won't always be easy.