Am I ready yet?
Friday, September 02, 2011
It seems I keep trying to get motivated and I force myself to think I am ready. I have tried starting over many times in the past year. Is it real this time?
The past year has been a rough one for me. A hip injury that made it impossible to get any type of exercise in and caused chronic pain and depression sidelined me. I was not able to walk even a block without my pain level shooting up. So I sat, got more depressed, ate horribly, and gained weight.
My weight is not higher than it was when I first started SP and then lost 45 pounds. I now need to lose those 45 plus another 17 to get back where I had been. At that point I will be within 25 pounds of my goal. It seems daunting, but I know that taking it one step at a time and not expecting it to happen over night will get me there.
I do not expect this journey to be easy. I am still fighting pain in my hip, but I can at least walk again. I am ready for the beginning. Last week I had surgery (thyroid) and weighed in at 235.. ouch! I came home from the hospital and for some reason I had no pain in my hip. It gave me added hope. I don't know why the pain was gone (anesthesia? or maybe those leg massage things to move the blood?), for whatever reason it gave me the motivation to try to walk. I walked .7 miles the day after I got home. The pain started coming back, but was minimal. The next day I walk 1 mile. After a rest day I made it 1.5.
Yes, the pain is there, but not nearly as severe. We are pretty sure it is caused by inflammation, but not sure what is causing it. I am trying to keep the inflammation down with pills/ice so I can keep walking. With the hope that eventually my body will realize this is what it is supposed to do and the inflammation will subside permanently.
The past week I have been working on my diet and drinking plenty of water. I have lost almost 7 pounds since that weigh in before surgery. Yes, I am ready to take the journey and I will never quit.