The long road back to Spark......
Thursday, September 01, 2011
It is so good to be back on Spark and back on the path to a healthier, fitter, leaner me. It has been a rough year for my family. Almost lost my father-in-love in April. This is the only man that has ever been a father to me. Spent many months helping to nurse him back to health and now that he has made a full (and miraculous recovery), I knew it was time to refocus on myself. I lost my way, so I had to find the road back.......
I had been a previous member of Spark for several years under the name Sweetpea0214. I thought I was doing everything right - exercising faithfully, eating right, tracking, sparking daily and was even a Spark People Motivator and Team Leader. But then one day last August, I just woke up and felt so overwhelmed by it all. I was trying to be everything to everyone both on Spark and in my personal and professional life that I didn’t have anything left for just me. I lost interest in sparking, in my friends, in myself. Oh, I sparked on for a few more months, sporadically, making excuses, just hanging out in the fringes of spark. And then I just quit coming back at all. I quit participating in my team challenges; minor injuries that I used to work through (a broken toe, back pain, shoulder tear), I let become an excuse for not working out for a few days, that eventually become a few weeks, then a few months went by and before I knew it, all the hard work and muscle that I had gained, became fat again. And that one piece of candy that I let myself eat, eventually become a whole bag (and I’m talking full-sized bag) and before I knew it, the 20 lbs I had lost, became only 10. And when I stepped on the scale and saw that the number had crept up dangerously close to 150 again, the spark bulb went back off in my head.
I realized that I can not complete this journey on my own. It is a fact that those that have support lose weight and keep it off more than those that try to lose it on their own. I know that if I have others to help motivate me and inspire me from their own stories, that if I get a swift kick in the butt when I slack and an “atta-girl” when I achieve a goal, that I will be more motivated to stay the course. So armed with that realization and knowledge, I rejoined Spark on August 2nd full of renewed energy, determination and willpower. And I shed my old self (sweetpea0214) and created the new me (GeorgiaDeb). I wanted a fresh start, a clean slate, taking a different route this time.
My first goal was small - lose 3 lbs in August. Track my food, eat 1300-1500 calories a day and complete Phase 1 of Chalean Extreme. Most of these goals were accomplished with the exception of the weight that I lost. It wasn’t 3 lbs., but it was 2.5 lbs. For me that was the single most weight I have lost in one month in a long time. I am MOST pleased.
One other goal I put in place was to give up my beloved candy. I love candy. I love the sweet of it, the chewy of it; I love it for breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks. But I realized that the sugar was holding back my weight loss. I eat clean - mostly fruits, salads, lean meat, veggies. Wasn’t really losing any weight though. So I took the leap and told myself that if I was really going to do this - I had to give up this one last addiction that was holding me back. I am pleased to announce that I have been CANDY-FREE for 30 days now. At first I could have eaten my weight in it. The first three days were the hardest; but slowly, and with the help of my Shakeology Protein Shake, the cravings have subsided for candy and I can now walk into a convenience store - look at it and keep on walking. I haven’t given up all sugar mind you - I still like a teaspoon or two in my coffee, but I have given up the hard stuff (candy). Never have been one to eat cakes, cookies or pies and I am lactose intolerant so I don‘t eat ice cream, so those empty calories really don’t tempt me - but the candy does. So I’ll take it a day at a time and rejoice for the time I’ve been “clean”.
I have met new Spark Friends, I have rekindled friendships with old friends and I have joined a few new challenges to keep me on track. My goal is to be at my goal of 122 by my 50th birthday on February 14th, (5 ˝ months away).
I am so glad that I am going to finish this journey where I started it - on SparkPeople!!!