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Another blow.....blah

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

So tonight my son asks me if something looks good, i go yes it looks fine. He then tells me, well i care about my appearance when you dont......
I was really hurt..... not that i said anything to him because i didnt wanna start another argument. I really wish he knew what it was like in my shoes....
I WISH i could fit into small cute clothes.... I know he's just a kid and he doesnt really understand but he SHOULD know whats appropriate and whats NOT appropriate. I dont want to buy NICE things when im trying to lose weight. He's always been the one out of the kids to think of HIMSELF. Its one of my BIGGEST pet peeves about him.
I was NOT in the mood to exercise tonight but i used what he said as motive to I NEED to exercise. Because sitting on my rear will NOT get me to my goals. So even though my knee has been in alot of pain, i pushed through it and did SOMETHING. That alone still made me feel good that i did SOMETHING.
But my son saying that made me want to cry. I want to LOOK pretty.....and him saying that made me feel UGLY. So i start thinking, does he think i look...FAT....i know i am, but does he THINK it..... is that part of the whole i dont care about my appearance..... i exercise every night he sees me doing so..... he sees me writing down what im eating....
AM I NOT TRYING?!


On a higher note. my mother has decided she NEEDS to rejoin weight watchers. She does NOT know how to use a computer, i wish she did, i keep talking about this site, and how much she would love it. But shes really scared that its going to be HARD with the new Points Plus plan with ww. I told her its not to much different. There is nothing to be scared about. I wish i could ease her fears ...... what i shouldve said was mom i love you, and i want you around forever , and for u to be around and healthy for a long time u need to eat right. I know exercise is and will be VERY VERY difficult to her because of her fibromyalgia, but i told her 10 min of walking, just go around the block and back at her own pace. Your making a few more steps then u did before the walk, its one step closer to being healthy.

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MAMACAT2_3 9/11/2011 4:12PM

    It does really hurt when your own child makes a comment towards your appearance or weight. A while back my youngest and my middle son who were ages 7 and 9 at the time said to me, "mom I thought you said you were going to lose weight!!??" The tone that my youngest child used made me think it really bothers him...or that he may be embarrassed or annoyed by my weight. I mean, I'M annoyed by my weight and how it prevents me from doing some of the things I want to do, but to hear my kids say something like that...that hurts.

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WINNIE1978 9/2/2011 8:10PM

    Sorry your son hurt your feelings. Maybe having a chat with him about how he hurt you would do him some good.

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RTICK1 9/1/2011 5:50PM

    Keep your chin up girl, you are doing great! Don't let comments like that bring you down! Sometimes people don't realize what they are saying is hurtful. I know it still hurts, but other people often don't realize what it is like to be in your shoes. And, you realize what you are doing... and you are trying to help yourself live a better life.... and that's all that matters. Just shrug it off and use the motivation:)

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HIKINGLEAH 9/1/2011 11:45AM

    It's hard when family members say hurtful things. Sometimes it seems to sting more because it seems like they should be the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally and not make judgmental comments. However, often family members do make comments or say things without thinking how it will affect you. It is good that you took a negative comment and turned around and did something positive for yourself. Good for you! emoticon

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ALLPROTAMMY 8/31/2011 11:28PM

    I'm sorry your son was hurtful to you. Unfortunately some make judgements from what they think they know be a truth. It is also safe to say that those who feel the need to make those type of comments are only trying to make themselves feel better by pointing out some things that they think are flawed in another person. Age and inexperience is also a factor here.

You are beautiful now. You are created in God's image. We serve an awesome God. Was what you heard from a Godly perspective? NO!!!!!!

May you be blessed the rest of your day!!!

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