What is depression?

Sunday, August 28, 2011

To me depression is the fat kid getting picked on, that homeless guy that gets kicked around by soceities, the little kid that sits alone in his room waiting for someone to notice him, the old guy sittin on his porch that lost his beloved wife of 50 years.... that guy who has everyone and everything, but is alone in his head.... the guy who sits alone and tears up when listening to that certain song....the woman who works job after job, but no one says thank you... the woman that sits on the city bus with her kids taking them to the welfare office... the guy sitting in the hotel room with a bottle and a picture of his past life.... the person standing at the top of a building feeling the breeze on there face wondering if they flew for that one second.... the person sitting alone in the dark holding those pills... that guy u hear about on the news that lost the fight with himself when he found his gun.... to me depression is in all forms...shapes..sizes.... yes i have family...friends...a beautiful wife...and loving 2 year old... but ive delt with depression since i was 10 years old...i could be in a room full of people and still feel alone...my depression got worst after my sister passed....then even worst when my mother passed away....i never really grew up in a child hood....never had a teenage life...i was 21 at 11 years old...taking care of myself...my mom...and doing anything in my power to make sure my mother didnt have alot of problems on her shoulders....and now where i cant find a job...just makes it worst...my life wasnt easy...but it wasnt as bad as some have had it....yes ive been homeless three times...lost my mom...never had a dad...lost one child with an old gf...
was up by my step father when i was 8...watched friends commit suicide...sometimes...no matter what i feel alone and depressed....but i guess that happens to everyone now and again....well for now im off my friends take care.
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    Depression sucks.
    Battle it often.
    You're not alone...
    2208 days ago
    I'll tell you what my daughter told me...you can't be depressed or be angry when you are walking as fast as you can!! Told her of course not...I'm worried about keeling over in the street!! Depression really sucks I know, but when it hits, get up and do something or pick up a Bible. You'd be surprised at what the smallest movement can do for a mood. I do laundry or empty the dishwasher and turn the music up as loud as I can!! It's never easy, but we can press past it if we try hard enough. Maybe meds are the answer..they help me, but the best I've felt in the past 20 yrs has been when I took the time to exercise everyday and eat sensibly. And as Kimberlang says...One day at a time! Tell yourself before you roll out of bed I'm going to have a good attitude to day! you may be surprised!
    Becky emoticon
    2363 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/31/2011 1:29:56 PM
    i know depression is hard, runs through my family bad. I don't think there's a way to stop it but you can deal with it the best you can and just tell yourself that you can't change who you are or what you have been through or what you are going through, but the things you can control it what you eat and your exercise and whether you get up off the couch and force yourself outside with your son instead of sitting on the couch dwelling on things you can't change. One thing I learned about me is the less time I sit and think the better I am, because I have alot of neg. thoughts and neg. voices from people I know and the less I think the better I feel and the less depressed I get. anytime you start to think about things that get you down, get up take a walk or clean the house or anything to get your mind off of it.
    I know this is easier said than done, i struggle everyday with it too and there are some days i give in to it but just remember one day at a time.
    2365 days ago
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