Sunday, August 28, 2011
Last week I gave up. I lost my job, now didn't have the money to go to my 50th high school reunion, and in general felt very sorry for myself. I ate two bags of cookies, and a quart of ice cream. I stopped visiting the Spark site because I was too embarressed, and I felt I had simply failed yet again. I have no real friends,and my kids live far away. I even considered suicide. Then the mail came. I had forgotten that I had ordered The Spark. I'm an avid reader so thought I should at least check it out. I started in the middle of the book, and read a few things that caused me to start at the beginning. I still need to work out my real goals. I see now why I wasn't getting anywhere with losing weight, but that's ok because now I will start over. I will read the whole book first this time. I will take it slow, and make small changes. I have my notebook, and Ive made my start. I need a friend this time around too. Wish me persistence.