Friday, August 26, 2011
For some reason, my nerves are on edge ever since that earthquake. It is like I have never fully calmed down. I think I have found a pretty good tool to direct my anxiety away from bad snacks and tearing my cuticles and nails apart – the answer is carrots. I have a small bag of baby carrots here with me, and I can pick one up and nibble at it slowly (and furiously at the same time? If that makes sense?) and I feel better.
Now, this could be taken as I’m still solving my problem with food. But I will say this – I have portioned out my carrots, and they are carrots. Not chips. Not candy. Not fries or any other bad thing I used to shove in my mouth. They are factored into my tracking and they are helping me. Is this bad?!
I am feeling SO much better today. My antibiotics have killed my appetite but I have somehow managed to gain weight – probably from the sitting around all week. TOM should be here any day as well, so I know that throws things off. I have just been floating around the same weight for weeks now. Sigh.
In other news, a hurricane is coming. I went to the store yesterday to grab a few things. They aren’t quite sure what kind of damage we’ll see from this but I remember the last time one came by in 2003 and it was pretty messy. I’m about 17 miles from the Chesapeake Bay, but we’re thankfully much more uphill from it. We have to be more concerned with the rain and the wind. Our apartment backs to the woods and very tall power lines. The last hurricane had my parent’s house without power for a week… so we’ll see. I’m at least banking on a rainy Sunday to relax and read. Now comes the fun part – waiting!
I want to get back in the swing of things next week. I know I got kind of a “free week” but I’m feeling much more alive and energized than I have been. I think my body was trying to hold this illness off for a while but finally gave in. I am over that hurdle though and hopefully I’ll be good to go for a while!
Back to the carrots… stay safe and dry this weekend!