Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Part of me feels like I need to get back to blogging regularly. Another part says I don't like to blog negativity and most my thought are either negative or depressing, so just forget it. AND I like my blogs to be organized, but my thoughts are so scattered these days, I doubt that would happen either.
What the heck, let's give it a try ;-)
I've had the hungries for the past couple days or so and having a hard time restricting my eating to only (mostly) healthy selections. I keep telling myself its okay for me to order something sweet for breakfast on the weekends, because, after all, I don't eat that way all week, right? lol Actually many days I do make it work (for the most part), but then other similar choices pop up. For example: the bread at Avanit's Italian Restaurant is something I should pass on, but I can rationalize that I'm stressed and a little bread just THIS time will be okay.
Funny, but at one time these decisions were easier. I would count the cost instead of the instant gratification. If I saw candy on sale, I would tell myself 'lol, oh, look, I can get fat for less!' Or for things like bread, I would remind myself of the proper nutrition I need to build a better/healthier body.
Shoulder still hurts when ever I move it wrong. Some days I can do the exercises with no problem. Other days it feels bad to try the exercise without ANY weights, let a lone with them. Taking off my lab jacket or trying to fasten/unfasten a bra is a real chore to do without hurting. And forget trying to stretch; that hurts every time.
Back still gets tired, but it's actually feeling a little better.
Knees still feel unstable. Makes it a bit worrisome to try to many movements.
Warning: TMI. …. Constipation seems like it MIGHT be a little better. I finally broke down and started taking a stool softener, but I really don't think that's all of the problem. Maybe some day, finances permitting, I'll get it checked out. Hopefully it's just my innards drooping from having three kids.
I'm concerned about DD. Her finances suck and she recently made application to be a secret shopper. Well she got an acceptance letter and a nice size check in the mail. I saw this morning that she has cashed the check. I hope it works for her, but you know what they say, "if it looks to good to be true, it probably is"
DH seems to be doing well, except of course for his continual complaints about his co-workers AND for the neuropathy in his feet. It seems like his feet are burning/hurting more lately.
As for me, I think I'm just tired of being tired. On top of everything else that's going on, I can't seem to get to bed before 9 or 10 pm and my alarm goes off at about 3:40 a.m. I don't get up till 4:00 usually, but the alarm still goes off. Normally I don't need an alarm and have only been using for about the past year - just as a security blanket so I don't let down my friend by not showing up at the gym by 5. But it's getting to the point where there's a good chance I would oversleep due to being too tired.
Well, I guess this is enough senseless rambling for one day