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Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Part of me feels like I need to get back to blogging regularly. Another part says I don't like to blog negativity and most my thought are either negative or depressing, so just forget it. AND I like my blogs to be organized, but my thoughts are so scattered these days, I doubt that would happen either.

What the heck, let's give it a try ;-)

Healthy Living
I've had the hungries for the past couple days or so and having a hard time restricting my eating to only (mostly) healthy selections. I keep telling myself its okay for me to order something sweet for breakfast on the weekends, because, after all, I don't eat that way all week, right? lol Actually many days I do make it work (for the most part), but then other similar choices pop up. For example: the bread at Avanit's Italian Restaurant is something I should pass on, but I can rationalize that I'm stressed and a little bread just THIS time will be okay.

Funny, but at one time these decisions were easier. I would count the cost instead of the instant gratification. If I saw candy on sale, I would tell myself 'lol, oh, look, I can get fat for less!' Or for things like bread, I would remind myself of the proper nutrition I need to build a better/healthier body.

Shoulder still hurts when ever I move it wrong. Some days I can do the exercises with no problem. Other days it feels bad to try the exercise without ANY weights, let a lone with them. Taking off my lab jacket or trying to fasten/unfasten a bra is a real chore to do without hurting. And forget trying to stretch; that hurts every time.

Back still gets tired, but it's actually feeling a little better.

Knees still feel unstable. Makes it a bit worrisome to try to many movements.

Warning: TMI. …. Constipation seems like it MIGHT be a little better. I finally broke down and started taking a stool softener, but I really don't think that's all of the problem. Maybe some day, finances permitting, I'll get it checked out. Hopefully it's just my innards drooping from having three kids.

I'm concerned about DD. Her finances suck and she recently made application to be a secret shopper. Well she got an acceptance letter and a nice size check in the mail. I saw this morning that she has cashed the check. I hope it works for her, but you know what they say, "if it looks to good to be true, it probably is"

DH seems to be doing well, except of course for his continual complaints about his co-workers AND for the neuropathy in his feet. It seems like his feet are burning/hurting more lately.

As for me, I think I'm just tired of being tired. On top of everything else that's going on, I can't seem to get to bed before 9 or 10 pm and my alarm goes off at about 3:40 a.m. I don't get up till 4:00 usually, but the alarm still goes off. Normally I don't need an alarm and have only been using for about the past year - just as a security blanket so I don't let down my friend by not showing up at the gym by 5. But it's getting to the point where there's a good chance I would oversleep due to being too tired.

Well, I guess this is enough senseless rambling for one day

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    Don't EVER apologize for blogging out your feelings. I am compelled to blog out worries and problems that I really don't understand. The blogging seems to release them from rattling around in my head and once they hit the page...I feel SO much better.

    I really had a ROUGH time of it on a recent vacation back to my home state of Iowa. It's not that Iowa itself is so bad...actually the weather was's that it holds so many negative energies that always seem to suck the living life out of me.

    Mainly it's MIL and SIL who decided from day 1 a VERY long time ago that they resented and disliked me with a capital D!

    That was hard for me to get my head around...still is..being an only child I was SO looking forward to having a sister in law. I had visions of a real sister...but it was not to be and after 33 years of marriage I know it will NEVER be.

    Anyhow...I blogged my little heart out and my sparkie friends were truly my angels!

    We are so close in this community...sometimes it just helps to get a different perspective on things...sometimes it helps to know you aren't going through rough spots in life alone...believe me blogging helps a bunch!

    And...remember too...I'm only a spark page away! Be blessed! emoticon emoticon
    2222 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/25/2011 11:39:51 AM
    Dee, I think we all have periods of time when things are bleak and we feel as if we are negative and posting all depressing things. Part of that is that Spark is a safe place for you to unload that crud so that you don't carry it around until you stress eat or turn to the unhealthy habits for comfort. If you need to unload for a while, I'm here to support you. I'd rather read it than have it rebound on you! And I DO read it. emoticon emoticon
    2222 days ago
    I'm in the same room with you Dee. I am only blogging once a week or so and I just blog some motivational quotes. I am spending too much time sitting at the computer Sparking. This was not meant to be a social website, but I feel like it has become that, and I'm tired of the same old thing. I have tried to cut back a little, but I am hooked. I need to take control of my life. Thanks for opening my eyes.
    Blessings and ((Hugs)) my dear friend.
    2222 days ago
    And THAT is exactly why I don't blog on here very regularly anymore. I journaled the same negative stuff in my journals for a good six or seven years. Took me that long to figure out I was stuck emotionally and went elsewhere (besides my journal) to deal with it. Saw a psychologist. I feel like I'm in the same place with this stuff. And the crappy truth is, I don't think I care anymore if I lose weight. As long as my A1C is behaving and I'm not gaining, I think I'm good with it. I know that's a really bad attitude... Sigh...
    2222 days ago
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