Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I want to say thank you to all who read and posted on my last blog. I feel much better, and ready to move forward.
Sometimes I go to such a dark place!!! I work every day to keep depression at bay. However, there are times when it grabs hold and takes me down. An event like this is usually precipitated by a spell of sleeplessness . Since I had the pleasure of being stung by a scorpion while in my bed, I have not been able to sleep much. That, combined with stepping on the evil scale and seeing the inexplicable gain, put me in an ugly place. When depressed, I start a cycle of brutally negative self- talk. And I can be VERY persuasive! Current circumstances have me without either a social or professional network for diversion. So the self-flagellation turns in to a 24/7 affair. Spark is truly my lifeline.
Each person responds to different stimuli. I love reading success stories, and I enjoy positive energy. But I also need to see the struggles of others to know that I am "normal". When all I see is the up side, I start to believe something is fundamentally flawed in me, and I get sucked in to a vortex of feeling hopeless and alone.
When I blog, it is most often because I am having a hard time, and need to connect. I am comforted to know that sharing my struggles is helpful to others as well. The community of the shared experience gives me strength to push forward. I earnestly hope it does the same for you....
Thanks, Sparklies....you are simply the best!!!