Monday, August 22, 2011
I always thought I was brave , that is until I found sparkpeople and started reading blogs and Spark Pages.
It was then that I realized that I was far from being brave about my weight, pictures and my journey.
I posted old photos from when i was thinner and I posted head shots but I couldn't bare to post what I really saw when I looked in the mirror. Actually I wish the pictures reflected what I had really been seeing but they didn't. Somehow, I was still seeing a thinner me that had long ago disappeared. It was in December that I fully realized how much weight I had to lose. I took my pea to get her 6 months pictures done and they took one of me with her. When the proofs came back I wanted to cry. Not only was I fat, my face was fat and I had this overbite that I didn't remember having . Today I am going to be the fearless person i want to be and show you my friends how out of control looks.
In January I started Weight Watcher's and Sparkpeople. It was a good start. I was eating healthy and trying to walk. This new me was only able to walk a mile in 21 minutes. I had never been that slow before. Whew was I out of shape. I was in such denial that I would take my measurements so I will never truly know where exactly I started. If it wasn't stretchy I wouldn't wear it. I liked to be in denial. In May, Weight watcher's had a Walk It challenge. I competed in my first ever 5k coming in at a little over a 15 minute mile. I had my husband and daughter with me so I will take it. But the picture proved that I had a long way to go. In this next picture I was down about 41 lbs
I still cringe looking at this picture.
I've been on this journey about 7 months. I'm still no where near where I need to be but I also know I have to practice what I preach and celebrate those baby steps. So I am proud of my over 68 lbs gone and proud that I am training for a half marathon and my mile is at 12.39 minutes. I will take it.
Oh and this is me this weekend. I still have work but I can see some changes
This skinny girl is my niece and the beautiful baby is my Pea.
Now my next challenge will be to post my weight.. Hahahah I am still not that brave.
My wish for all of you is to be brave and proud of being on this journey and to not be afraid of where you started because hopefully we will never go back there.