Sunday, August 21, 2011
I started editing my list of "favorite" foods in the nutrition tracker on here this morning. BOY, is that a time-comsuming process! Sure wish there was a way to highlight all the ones I want to delete and hit the "remove" button just one time for all of them. But, unless I'm truly blind, I don't see any way to do that. I guess I don't get to push the "easy" button for this process. Booooooo.
It's very interesting to see all the foods that I haven't eaten for a really long time now and have no desire to ever eat again. (I've been on Spark for almost 5 years, for Pete's sake.) Plus a lot of the foods on my list are readily available on the Spark listing and so I don't "need" them on my list in order to avoid inputting them every time I want to add them to my tracker. PLUS, I'm not nearly as anal about entering foods as I used to be. I now have a much better grasp of the concept that if I enter a food that is close to what I ate it serves the end purpose I am trying to achieve (e.g., for romano cheese - ANY hard cheese will work for this entry; or whole wheat linguine - ANY whole wheat pasta will work for this entry; or white rice - ANY brand/length white rice will work for this entry). I don't need to have THE specific brand or type of food. And really, the more "whole" foods I eat (i.e., pinto beans are pinto beans are pinto beans - no matter WHO cooks them), the better I feel and the easier this process becomes.
There are a LOT of candies on my list that are SO easy to delete. And I know just from looking at them what "one bite" would do... cause me to instantly lose my perspective on using food for fuel. How quickly I forgot this concept and how QUICKLY it's all coming back to me!
Last night I made a cake for my hubby. He'll eat cake whether I make it for him or not. He's been buying small plastic containers when he does the grocery shopping that have what most people would consider a single slice of cake, but which really is two. Well, he eats it as two. On two separate nights. Good lord, but I don't have a clue how he does it!
But... I did the grocery shopping for a change yesterday, because I was anxious to get a bunch of salad fixings in the house for myself. I expect to be doing this every weekend now. (I also got stuff to make shishkabobs which we ate for dinner last night - YUMMMMMM!) I thought I'd be nice and get him his cake (and let him eat it too! haha), but none of it looked any good. I told my daughter, "I'll just make him one instead." And I did. Last night. It won't be any different to have the cake in the house if I made it vs. his buying it.
What was interesting to note (and the reason for my telling this story) is that I had a HARD time not licking my fingers!! I used my fingers to get the batter off of the spoon and, OUT OF HABIT, nearly put my fingers in my mouth. It's SOOO much easier to clean them that way than to walk over to the sink, get soap on your fingers (cuz they won't come clean without it) and then wash and dry your hands. And then I had to do the same thing all over again when I was frosting the darn thing. I had to be REALLY conscious of what I was doing or I would have totally screwed myself over WITHOUT EVEN TRYING. Stupid old habits! But I did it. Whew.
See, that's what's crazy. I had no desire to "test the batter" - or the frosting - and, in fact, I did NOT want that sugar beastie to get back into my system. But I almost did it anyway. This is FIVE YEARS into my "journey"!! Anyone who thinks they will ever get to a point where they don't have to be "aware" anymore is KIDDING themselves... Yes, it gets easier. Yes, it gets to a point where you don't have to be so all-consumed with food and exercise. Yes, yes, yes. But it never completely becomes second-nature. At least not for me.
Too much typity-typing. Got things to do (and more "favorites" to delete!)