Forgiveness has been crucial in order for me to release the weight. I know that to release eating out of mindless emotion or resentment, I need to keep short accounts...forgive anyone and everyone who I feel wronged by--even if that is ME or GOD! I know that may bother some people since God does no wrong, but there are often times when I feel He has expected way too much of me. I can't see how what he has ordained matches who I am. I end up resenting the Lord at times like that. When I feel that way, I don't trust him with my eating. I get an edgy attitude of rebellion and I don't want to surrender my eating to Him. That isn't ok. I think I have been in that place lately. So many things have happened that I find absolutely overwhelming. I want to run away from the reality that God has ordained. I know in my head that he is good and trustworthy, but I don't *like* what he has done. Anyhow, I need to forgive people and "forgive" God. God is God and I am NOT. As I go through this very intentional process, I become more at peace in my own skin...and my eating is much more peaceful and grateful, too. So that is where I am trying to go this week especially. Phew...