running in place
Friday, August 19, 2011
I feel like I've been running in place for at least 2 years. My weight has been bouncing around the same 5-8 lb range, except for one horrible week when my mom was gravely ill and I forgot to eat for several days and dropped 5 lbs in a week. Thankfully, mom recovered (we will be celebrating her 90th birthday this fall) and I started behaving normally again. I'm self aware enough to know that I need to focus on my weaknesses-- portion sizes and absent-minded munching-- but it's so much more fun to track the things I'm good at like exercising and eating a healthy breakfast. Actually planning lunches and dinners for the week is WORK, and measuring portions feels very alien. I'm happy and comfortable in the kitchen, and the grocery store is my favorite place to shop, so why would I do something that makes me feel awkward? I realize that if I want to lose weight I have to live with the discomfort until portion size and meal planning become habits. And until then, I'm just running in place.