Friday, August 19, 2011
Last night as I was sitting around spending my time very wisely using Sparkpeople, I came to some realizations. I really really love this site! I love it more than anything else that I do on the computer. But, I also realized that part of my problem when I am down and out, is that I do not use the full resources that Spark has to offer. Sure, I might continue to browse blogs, spin the wheel and maybe even log my food if I dare, but I run away and hide my head in shame and do not reach out to where the support really is.
I belong to some fabulous teams that I have made friends with that I could literally call my sisters. They have become a part of my life that I cannot imagine living without. It was the constant comments and goodies from these sisters while I was on my pity trip that brought me back to my senses. I would read some of the comments and look at the goodies and just start crying knowing how much these people really care about me and my journey. But, I did not reach out to these teams in my time of destress. If I would have just asked for help, I know that I would have had a multitude of responses immediately. So, why didn't I? Was I that scared of being surrounded by so much love and support and not knowing what to do with it? Or did I want to stay in my pity party for a little while (which was a good learning experience) and knew if I reached out, I would be pulled back in very quickly because my Sparkfriends love me too much to let me stay that way? I do know that if I had reached out to my Spark teams, that the pity party would not have lasted one day with my Spark sisters on my side. They would have whipped me back into my place real fast. So, please fully access your Spark teams. The people there, love you and care about you.
Secondly...blogging. Blogging is such a great way to get those feelings out there and get awesome feedback. For two weeks, I did not blog. Why? For fear that my Sparkfriends would give it to me straight and pull me back in? For fear I would be judged? I don't know exactly what was going on in my mind the last month, because I was a mess, but blogging could have saved me a lot of mental destress. I was pretty impressed Wednesday when I put up my first blog and the comments and goodies started taking over my page. Wow! No one forgot about me! They were waiting for that blog to pop up and to see my return to Spark. If that doesn't lift a girls spirit.
When was the last time I used a message board? Hmmm....I honestly do not know. Yet another great way to reach out and ask for help and get feed back. I think the message boards scare me a little because I will get replies from total strangers that are not necessarily my close Spark friends. But you know, sometimes we need an opinion from someone other than the people that we are closest to.
It's obvious that I have to learn to quit running away from Spark every time life hits me with stuff I don't want to deal with. I need to learn to use the teams, write on those message boards and blog until my eyes water out of my head. Spark is always going to be part of my life and I need to treat it as a necessary part no matter what is going on inside of me. The tools here are too wonderful to take for granted. Use them all!
Wooo! It feels good to be back to blogging! Happy Friday everyone! Have a fantastic weekend and don't forget to use the resources here at Spark!