I know this is probably a blog you've seen before from any number of Spark Friends who are on the weight loss journey. Spent five hours total in two different stores trying on clothes and wanting to spit nails. Please tell me how I can go into a store - pull out 8 pair of jeans to try on in varying colors - same style - just different colors and not one of them fit exactly alike. I found one pair that I could actually buy. The other 7 (even though they were the same size - 8 short) were either 1) too long by varying degrees (some as long as 6" longer than the ones I bought) 2) too big (???) 3) so small that I would have had to lay on the floor, suck in my stomach and then try and zip them (and probably wouldn't have gotten back up) or 4) wouldn't even sit on my hips so I felt like I was constantly trying to pull my pants up (I can't do those jeans where you have to squish your stomach in them one way and your butt the other - I like mine to sit at the natural waist - not mom jeans, but just want some coverage).
So I walked out of that store with exactly one pair of jeans.
On to the next store - so I have big boobs right. I know I take a large t-shirt. I pulled on some shirts that were so tight I looked mashed; some were so loose that I looked huge. WTF!!! After trying on 22 shirts - 22 - I bought 3 - and one was a medium!!!!
Dresses - please tell me where the pretty little summery dresses have gone? I can't find not one. I have in my mind what I want and all I can find are these dark, shapeless dresses. When I do find a cute one - all that's left are 0/2 or 16/18/20. I found two dresses that I liked - got a large (again the boob thing), one was so tight I couldn't even get it over my boobs and the other one was so big I had to make sure it wasn't a plus size. Back to the rack - the dress that was a large that was too small they didn't have any bigger so no go on that one; the dress that was a large and was too big, I ended up buying in a medium.
Back to jeans - found three pair that I thought looked nice - not one ended up in my cart. I do not have a unibutt. I do not have a flat butt. I am italian - I have a pretty ample butt no matter how much working out I do. If a pair fit my butt, it's gapped in the waist. The other two made me look like I had a big blob of a unibutt. Geez Louise - how hard does this have to be.
Found a pair of size 8 red capri's - loved them - found a nice shirt to go with them - couldn't get them over my hips. Do you see the pattern????? Did not end up with any more pants, shorts or skirts.
Would you like to hear about the 9 bras and 2 sports bras I tried on? Really - a 36D should be a 36D in every bra maker in the world. I ended up with 2. The sports bra - I got one on that I thought I was going to have to yell for security to help me get off. I had to contort my body in ways I didn't think I could. I thought I dislocated my shoulder. I remember thinking how in the hell would I get this off after working out if my body was all sweaty? Of course, it may have slid right off then huh? I didn't even try the second one because frankly I just didn't have the energy :)
So five hours of shopping netted me 2 bras, one pair of jeans, 3 shirts, one dress and one very nice purse :)
I keep saying one day I'll be a uniform size 6, but the truth is, I'll probably still have the same problem; probably still be as frustrated as I was today. I will say the one thing I realized when I got home - for the first time in a long time, it wasn't the mirror that made me frustrated, it was the actual clothes. I know I am a work in progress and I am working hard. Results are slow, but they are there and I can see them. And even though I still don't see the person I know I can be, I can now look at myself and remember where I was, I know where I am going and I am looking good. In other words - I choose to look at the positive changes and not the flaws!!!
P.S. Y'all want a real laugh now - as I came back to read the comments there was a popup ad on the side for "butt lift jeans" LOL
. Oh God, I am still wiping the tears. I guess whatever makes the ads show up for something you are "interested in" took the words "butt" and "jeans" out of my blog. I am laughing so hard, I have a side stitch