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    MAYOTTE-P   2,875
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Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Again I feel like his illness is taking over my life.Im losing focus on my wants. My goals are slowly disappearing.I feel depressed and withdrawn.Stress with chest pains and heart palpitations.Im so sick of living like this.Its fine for awhile then sure enough I break down and give him an inch and he takes a foot.It never ends.I go to therapy today thank god. I need to get back on track emotionally.He lingers here all day.Not working.Loses every job he has.Outside drinking in his truck.He has no clue what he puts me through.I want to focu son myself.It seems like I have to keep starting over.I kick him out for a few months and start feeling better and living my life.Then he eventually breaks me down with his sob stories.He comes back, he will be ok for awhile then sure enough it always starts back up again.He refuses to go to rehab.I need to get rid of him for good.Need to run away.I can never stay strong enough to keep my foot down.uuuggghhh feeling hopeless emoticon

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DEZZIEJAMES 8/20/2011 11:05AM

    I'm so sorry you're going through this. Only you know what is best for you. You're strong enough to pull through this... You really are. *HUGS*

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