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Time for a "FRESH START"...

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Obviously, as any of my SparkFriends who follow me know, I haven't done a "real blog" lately... and I can't say that I really have a good excuse for this, except for the following reason: I went into a total backsliding meltdown over the past couple of months!

In some of the comments on my previous blogs, I've been thanked for my frank honesty... so I figure why change now. So, this blog is loaded w/ more of the same...

I knew I'd done some damage, that was obvious... but I had no idea HOW MUCH damage I did... because I've been dodging the scale and playing the denial game. (Unfortunately, I've actually become really good at that particular game lately!) After a month, some of the cute little shirts that I had gotten into were getting too tight. Then the next month, my shorts were causing the hang-over muffin top that I had proudly gotten rid of previously. But the real issue came when my scrubs for work were even getting too close... I mean, seriously... you have to have put on ALOT of weight for SCRUBS not to fit!!!

And I did... close to 50 lbs.! That's right, I've gained back close to 40 lbs. in just 4 months!!! WTH?!?!?!?!?! That's just insane!!! How in the world could I have let this happen???

I'm not gonna try to blame anything or anyone else... I did it to myself. I've turned to fattening snacks and a ton of fast food lately... in fact, I bet that I ate out 6 of 7 days last week alone! That definitely is not conducive to weight loss... and I promise you I was not making choices from the "healthy" part of the menu. As if that wasn't enough, I've also indulged in a few nights of drinking w/ friends & family, which I typically limit to just once or twice a year! Then add in the fact that exercise has been NON-EXISTENT in my lifestyle, that pretty much explains "HOW" I got to where I am now.

I'm not gonna list out all of my measurements, etc... safe to say that I definitely GAINED in all areas! Here are the 2 "overall" measurements:

WEIGHT: + 28.6 lbs. since previous blog (5/3/11)
+ 54.6 lbs. from lowest weight (9/15/10)

BODY FAT: + 4.61 % since last blog

So, as you can see, I've got ALOT of work to do... at least I didn't let it go long enough that I undid everything I've worked so hard for over the past few years. But it's definitely time to buckle back down and get back to work! I've got a long road ahead of me...

I do have a couple of great "motivators" coming up... my middle stepson & his fiance will be getting married on May 19th next year, and just one week later I have my 25th class reunion to attend. So, I've got about 42 weeks, or just under 300 days, to get my butt (and everything else on my body) back into shape!

So, I started this "Fresh Start" (as I'm calling it) on Monday, and I've had a couple of great days so far. I know that 2 days aren't much, but if you knew how many times I had to stop myself from going for that extra snack or unhealthy food option, you'd know just how much those 2 days mean to me! Hopefully I'll have some great "initial" weight loss just because of water weight and decreased sodium intake to help really get me motivated!

As part of my "Fresh Start", I moved myself back to Stage 1 on here just so I can get a "refresher" course on what I've learned on this website... as I obviously haven't been putting that knowledge to use the past couple of months. I've also recommitted myself to getting in exercise every single day... whether I hit the gym (like I did today) or I go for an extra walk during or after work... but I'm going to do something every single day!

So... that's my story in a nutshell... maybe some good can come outta all of this & I'll help someone else in the same boat as me! Stay tuned... hopefully good updates will be coming in the future!
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  • I82MUCHB4
    Well, I’m glad you’re back. I’m “back” too!

    It is very easy to fall back into our old habits! Sheesh, I do it so often… I can’t even seem to show any measurable progress before I’m falling off the wagon!!!!

    All we can really do now is dust ourselves off and jump back on track. You have already proved that you can lose it! You KNOW you can do it again! We just have to stay focused!

    I am SO glad you didn’t delete everything on your page and start over! All of us can relate on how much of a struggle becoming healthy really is. We are right here with you, through ALL of the ups & downs!

    BTW, your stepson is getting married on my B-day so it will be an easy reminder for me for your goal dates! I would sure like to lose most of my weight by that time, so I’ll be trucking along with ya!

    2243 days ago
    emoticon Good blog! You certainly know you're not alone. Good job on the fresh start and 2 good days. Keep that up so it'll be 2 weeks before you know it. This is sooooo hard, but not impossible. WE/ emoticon I didn't snack last evening! emoticon My start! Have a good rest of your week. You will do this, I'm sure! Hip Hip Hooray for us!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2247 days ago
    I am in the same boat you are in after my surgery I lost so much weight I went shopping in my own closet. I start wearing my clothes I could not fit. Now I let myself get back to square one weight back on. All is not lost this Sunday I am going to start with my treadmill and also do weight training at least 3 times a week. As for the treadmill will be on it every day until I reach 30 minutes and will continue there after. emoticon
    together we can do this. emoticon
    2251 days ago
    Hey lady,
    I know you can do it and you have plenty of support to help! No more vending machines, pizza hut delivery, etc. You can do it!
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    2253 days ago
    Oh, Darlin' thank you for this blog post. I could have written it myself! I am about where you are. Like you, there are lots of reasons...Mom's failing health, bad financial times for us, on and on. It's still only UP TO ME!!! You are a breath of fresh air just when I needed it most.
    2253 days ago
    2253 days ago
    Confession is good for the soul (someone said that)!
    I'm proud of your "Fresh Start". I know you are really serious and with the wedding and reunion coming up you have incentive.
    Because I don't walk except in my back yard, I'm really enjoying Leslie Sansone DVD "Walking at Home". Really a fat burner!!
    Keep us up-to-date on your progress. Seeing it in writing will give you more motive!
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    2253 days ago
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