Monday, August 15, 2011
Some days......well most days im a perfect picture of positivity, but the past few days...maybe even full week possibly month, ive been a bit on the bummed out,dumpy woe is me trip.
ive been working out, staying on top of my water intake, playing well with others, and eating within my calorie range. i started out in May on my SP Journey...the 22nd to be exact, and my starting weight was 227. my weight as of today is at 199.5, but yesterday it was 188.5 WOO HOO.....nope, not really......ive just found out that the scale i have grown to come to trust has been blowing smoke up my ass the entire time....*sigh* the frustration thats filling me is overwhelming. i feel like i was stabbed in the back. dont get me wrong ive come a long way in a short time and love what i HAVE lost already, but to think one thing and see it isnt real........makes me a wee bit sad, angry and makes me feel betrayed in some way by this inanimate object i rely on weekly to let me know how im doing by the numbers. i know, i know.....dont focus solely on the scale, and i truly dont, my measurements have been awesome, and it makes me smile ear to ear when i see where i was and how far i have already come in a short period of time.
so? am i crazy? should i end this relationship with this" cheater" scale and look for a new high class " mr right" to take its place? i think it might be a good idea. how can you know whats right and whats wrong when the scale changes 10 to 18 pounds difference every few days.......thats not a few pounds, thats a HUGE gap, and i need correct information from my weight loss pal scaley to show correct numbers....not to pms or have a mood swing and be like..."hey to hell with her, im gonna throw out whatever i feel like today for numbers.....see how funny i can be"....no way!
so, long story short, said scale (impostor) will be taking a long walk off a short pier so to speak...
maybe its mercury in retrograde again.....either way that shady machine has gotta go