Friday, August 12, 2011
I know I haven't blogged in a while but that's me....I go gung-ho for a while then I lose my steam. I don't know why I don't stay on track...I have just been this way for so long I forget how to be any other way....lol. That's the only way I can think to explain it. I have so many issues going on that it seems like weight loss is at the bottom of the pile. I guess I should work on my self esteem issues before anything and maybe I would be able to stick to something.....I don't know....just thinkin out loud.
I did manage to lose 19lbs somewhere....I hope it doesn't come back !! I can't really say my heart is into working out or loosing weight, and it really should be because I'm diabetic an have some health issues going on with that as well. Bipolar I'm sure is playing some role in all of this as well....lol. Sometimes I feel like I'm 2 different people in the same body....one of me being the I don't give a chit personality and the other one being the responsible personality. Geezzz I wish they would get along !!!
I guess at this point I can say I'm still here fighting the weight battle so that must be on the positive side .... and I hate always blogging negitive things but I'm just putting down my thoughts and feelings........someday I may be more positive.
But for now I hope you all have a wonderful weekend !!!