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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Rather than trying to explain to everyone what has been going on: Here goes.

My daughter and I, some 25 years ago, bought a horse. He was an infant, an Arabian
with lineage back-back-back, but was the spitting image of one of his grand sires,
Bask....we raised this little scamp on a bottle. He was hers, but he knew I was good
for extra loving, treats and so forth. He did tricks, was too smart for his own good.

He unlocked stall doors, barn doors, many times my daughter left the kitchen door open
and he just walked in and waited on her to appear. His legal name was Desert Ablaze....
and Blaze had more personality than any horse I ever knew, and that is a pile of them.....
He did not know any bad habits, never once nipped, kicked, bucked. He was the most
gentle soul, and when she saddle broke him gently, he would go all day and at dark, be
dancing to go more....endless energy.

Fast forward to about 2 months ago. After being in perfect health for his whole life, except
for a little scratch he got playing with one of the other horses. Barbara & Paul(SIL) came
home from work and he was down. His pasture buddy was running the fence screaming
and rearing and caring on trying to get attention for his friend. She ran to Blaze, Paul ran
to get the horse trailer hooked up and she coaxed him to his feet, he loaded and was
rushed to the equine hospital, where he stayed for 2 weeks, during which time, his
compacted intestine was cleared but he began to founder. They put special boots on him
and brought him home, buying special bedding for cushion, two huge barn fans to keep him
comfy, special food, and a list of meds.

He gained some weight back, but the foundering turned into Laminitis in the front, and
as many of you may know, that is what killed the great racehorse, Secretariant. Still they
tried everything, and I asked many on here to pray for him.....

For a while, he did better. Then he hit a stumbling block.

Sunday, Barbara said she had to beg him to get up, he struggled for a good bit, but he did
manage to get to his feet, and they HURT, because he never showed pain or distress til
Sunday. He was in agony. She called me, and we discussed it, through all our tears and
sobs..............and we decided it was time......Blaze was 25, lived the life of Riley, and he
did not deserve to continue suffering as he was.....he quit eating....and for him to not eat,
was a major signal. I asked her to put the phone to his ear so I could tell him goodbye,
and I told him how good a boy he is, what a joy he has been in our lives, how much I loved
him and would miss him....she kissed him for me.....and I told Barbara to be brave and
know she did the best she could. They have spent thousands on the hospital, special care,
not to mention her getting up at 4AM and sometimes not getting to bed til midnight, trying
to help him. So I know they tried........and had I not been in Alabama I would have been
there helping with his care.

So, Sunday evening, Desert Ablaze crossed the Rainbow Bridge into Heaven.
I have cried until, truthfully, I made myself sick....so this is my eulogy for my gutsy
beautiful friend...

Barbara and I both had the same dream Sunday night, after I seriously cried myself to
sleep...as did she...........

Blaze crossed the Rainbow Bridge, met his buds who had gone before, R.C., Snake, Queen
and Buck, and several of our dogs, they all rubbed noses hello again, and took out across
the most perfect meadow .......... Blaze had his neck arched and his tail flagged high and
they all were together.........
See you later my much loved friend, you were the best, and there will never be any to
try to take your place...........

PS: I just had to add this little story about Blaze. Barbara said when they took him to
the hospital, there was a white mare in a paddock closeby, and as sick as Blaze was, he
raised his head and nickered and whinnied at her....she said it was like he was saying,
"even though I am feeling pretty bad right now, I want to tell you how fine you look today."
The neverending flirtation....he was a character....

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  • SILLYHP1953
    I am so sorry about Desert Ablaze, he sounded like a wonderful horse, and I'm glad you had so many years with him. The rainbow bridge is quite a place....
    2354 days ago
  • HUGS2015
    I am so sorry that I didn't see this sooner! emoticon It is so heartbreaking to lose a family pet. We had to put our boykin spaniel, Brunswick to sleep last year and I still think I hear him walking around at night and miss him terribly. It was so brave of you and your daughter to let him go and not make him have to suffer. He will always have a special place in your hearts and minds and sounds like he was an extra gifted and talented horse.
    I loved the story about him whinnying at the white mare, that male testostrone is the last to go.
    You are in my thoughts and prayers as you grieve the loss of your sweet boy! emoticon emoticon
    2368 days ago
    That's so heartbreaking. I'm sorry you lost your beloved friend. I'm glad you shared the story with us so we can understand what you're going through. My heart hurts for you.
    2368 days ago
  • KRISTA48439
    This made me tear up. I've never owned a horse, but I've lost many pets over the years. I hope we do all get to see one another again, someday.
    2368 days ago
    How wonderful that you had 25 years with Blaze --- great, quality years. And how wonderful that you and your daughter had the same dream. What a gift he has given you both. Call on him often; he'll be there for you --- in spirit, if not in physical body.

    Blessings & a big hug,

    2368 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about your good & loving horse Blaze.
    He'll always be with you in your hearts!
    2369 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    emoticon I lost my cat, Mr. Wilkes in May, so I know what it is to be sad.
    2369 days ago
    I am so sorry to read this about Blaze. He sounded amazing ! At least you know he is better off now in that nice meadow ! Hope you can get some comfort out of that.
    2378 days ago
  • JUNEBUG1944
    I'm sorry, Darlene. Loss of a beloved pet is so sad.
    2379 days ago
  • WHGRN60
    I am so very, very sorry for your loss. It sounds as if Blaze really had a wonderful life. He was blessed to have such caring people.

    May God comfort you in your sorrow.
    2383 days ago
    I've gotten a little behind in my reading and I'm just seeing this now.

    I am so sorry for your loss. Blaze sounds like an amazing animal and friend. I wish I had some words to make you feel better, but all I can say is how sorry I am. Your story had me in tears and I just hope that yours are starting to dry now.

    2383 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your eulogy with us, he indeed sounded truly special! I am sorry for your loss.
    2384 days ago
    My tears flow for you, too.
    So sorry the loss of your dear friend.
    2385 days ago
    My sympathy, and tears go out to you.
    I love your eulogy, & feel you were very blessed to have Blaze (& others) in your life.
    God bless him, & YOU!!
    June :)
    2386 days ago
    It is so hard to lose a beloved animal friend. We all know in our hearts that we will outlive them, and yet it is always a shock when it happens.

    I am so sorry.
    2387 days ago
    Your story brought me to tears. There is no other love so unconditional as love from our animals. He brought you and your daughter much love and I'm sure it was good to no longer have the pain. A great love story. God bless you and your daughter. I'm sure he will never be forgotten and he has touched your lives in a very special way.

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    2388 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/11/2011 9:18:19 AM
    Darlene, I am sad for you too. I am happy that you shared this story with us.
    2388 days ago
    I am sorry for the loss of your pet/friend
    2388 days ago
    Friends come in all different shapes and sizes. I am so happy that you and your daughter's lives were enriched by the love and antics of one so sweet. Blaze will always remain in your family and stay tucked up under your heart. Hoping you find comfort in knowing that he can now run all day long with no pain, no worries ... Hugs, Eda emoticon
    2388 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about Blaze. What a wonderful blog about him. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    2389 days ago
    Hello Darlene
    sorry to hear about your Blaze. Just think he's up there in their heaven is playing around with you other pets. Remember all the good times you and your sister had with himter had with each other. I do wish that you and your sister can comfort 1 another and maybe get closer. He is at his resting place and will not suffer anymore.
    2389 days ago
    I am so sorry, i cant imagine how you must feel. I believe he will be dancing with Jesus,
    2389 days ago
    I'm so sorry! emoticon emoticon
    2389 days ago
  • TINAT247
    My heart goes out to you! Blaze was fiercely loved for sure. Peace to you.
    2389 days ago
    As I sit here with tears for your Blaze I say god bless you. Hes running with his friends now.
    2389 days ago
    Beautiful words for a beautiful friend. God bless. Wishing you and yours peace and comfort at this difficult time.
    2389 days ago
  • PATTIE441
    I'm very sorry for your loss. You both are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2389 days ago
  • MARY1313
    Oh Darlene I'm so so sorry! I know you are just beside yourself, not only for your lovely and beautiful lost horse, but because your daughter is there without you, grieving just like you. My thoughts and prayers are with you both my friend.

    Rest easy Blaze.

    2389 days ago
    Darlene, I am so very sorry for your loss.
    There are no words that can be said to ease your pain.
    Grieve him and cherish the memories.
    God Bless you!
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    2389 days ago
    So sad to lose a perfect friend:( My sympathies, Mary

    2389 days ago
    Oh Darlene, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing a few of your memories of him and what made him such a great horse and great friend. I am sending light for all who love him, and I can picture him at Rainbow Bridge, having the time of his life again, free of pain and waiting to see you all again.

    2389 days ago
    Darlene I am so sorry you've lost Blaze, he's no longer in agony.
    RIP emoticon emoticon
    2389 days ago
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