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I can't always be strong.....

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I try every day to show how strong I am and that everything is going great. I don't LIKE to post things that might depress someone but, I have to post what happened to me yesterday. (history: A dear friend of ours died unexpectedly on April 29 of this year and I have been sad and somewhat depressed since then). I have done some emotional eating. YESTERDAY: I started the day with a Doctor Appt to get my well woman check up. I got a prescription for hormones and my B12. I'm trying to get my physical body to get back in balance. The doctor sent me to get lab work so we can see where I am with all my levels. I waited for 45 minutes for my turn at the lab only to be told I should have been fasting for one of the tests. She was very sorry (yeah right). I was so upset and angry that I went to the truck crying and I headed straight to a mexican food restaurant for lunch (I had planned to eat Subway). All the way there I was telling myself that mexican food was not a good idea. I argued with myself that I didn't care. (you know that argument?) Mexican food won and I had a huge lunch. I finished the day with more food. I am writing this blog to say maintaining is NOT easy. I can't always be strong for other people. Sometimes I need other people to be strong for me and hold me up.

Thanks for reading my blog. Now, today is new and I started it with a Slimfast shake.
Love to you all !!!
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    I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. Dealing with grief is so difficult and it affects us in so many ways. This experience could have been a part of that grieving process. As for not being strong all the time, you are right. The strongest people I know are those who know when to lean on others. I am so glad you posted this blog as it is a reminder to everyone the value of our SPals, Spark Teams and our friends and family. We are here for each other through good and bad.

    2411 days ago
    Hi, I just want to say first and foremost my condolences to you on the loss of your friend. Second, your right you can't always be strong so do better the next time. We are all entitled to having a bad day. Be well and good luck to you! emoticon
    2413 days ago
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    Hi Julie, I understand your plight. As others have said, forgive yourself and have a good day today. Maybe you jagged your metabolism and all will work out just fine. I am upset because I have stayed in my range and still went up 2 lbs. May be water weight because son cooked dinner and I got more sodium.


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    2413 days ago
    Hang in there, Julie. I know this is a rough patch for you, but just keep the faith and keep making more good choices than bad and it will pay off.
    2413 days ago
    Dear QUADCMOM,
    I completely understand where you are coming from, as I am an emotional eater myself. I also 'caved in' after a stressful day yesterday, and you know what? It's okay. After nearly a month of no overindulging, I felt I was 'owed' some fat-laden food. So, I went to a Jack-in-the-Box and ordered what I REALLY wanted, not what was part of my plan. I ended up consuming close to 3000 calories yesterday, and I felt awful before going to sleep last night.
    I got a good night's sleep (I cannot overemphasize how important it is to maintaining one's mental health), woke up, and forgave myself.
    This morning I had a healthy breakfast, and I'm back 'on the wagon' again.
    You could do the same thing.
    This is not to say you should pretend the indulgence didn't happen (denial isn't going to get you anywhere), but recognize that you cannot change what happened, you can only move forward from here.
    Best of luck on your journey!
    2413 days ago
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