Tuesday, August 09, 2011
I have been up and down, wanting to do well, but struggling. I realised I had not blogged in a while and this is why-
1. I hate negativity- like Thumper's mom siad in the movie Bambi-" if you don't have anything nice to say dont say nothin at all>" so I have been feeling a little negative and ticked with myself, and stressed and a little (slightly) out of controll. And I did not want to talk about it.
2. It's embarassing to fail- and I feel like I have- I gained back 20 of the 30 lbs I lost.
3. I was wallowing a bit- it was a stressful year helathwise, workwise and otherwise, so I let the little hungry thing in my head say "I deserve this (cookie, chips, chocolate), because I have been so stressed out.
Ok here I am - August is not an easy month for me- It marks the anniversaries of when my brother, uncle and grandfather died (all seperate years). I am a litle blue, a little tired and a lot disgusted with myself.
On a positive note, I am determined to do something to fix the way I am feeling. I have already started to change my eating habbits and get out and exercise everyday. I am making plans for a family beach day and a girls day away. I did this before, I can do it again.