Sad while exercising, from guilt and fear about not doing other things
Monday, August 08, 2011
Last week I started crying while doing the 30 Day Shred. It wasn't because it was hard (although it was hard), it was because it was morning, I had woken up somewhat late and I was beating myself up for not having done enough the day before, and being slow to get to doing more that day. That feeling came over me again today during BFBM, although I didn't actually start crying.
I finished my summer job, and will not have much of a formal schedule until next week. I have a lot to do, but sufficient time to do it. I need to apply to some jobs and organize my room (as part of my new goal to be more organized). I know the sadness I feel is irrational, based in disappointment in myself from things past. All I can do is stay motivated and know my plan for the day. I only spend about 30 minutes exercising a day, and I have the whole day to catch up.
I have been consistent in exercising each morning and I am proud of that, but I feel less successful in my new goal of being more organized. However, I know I can't let this more successful area of my life suffer in my quest to be more organized and have better time management.