Sunday, August 07, 2011
hahaha... I'm sorry. That title has absolutely nothing to do with this blog. I just couldn't think of anything clever to put for a title so I quoted something ridiculous from "Whose Line is it Anyway?"
Well, to get started. I believe it is time for me to become accountable to myself. My weight-loss borders on stagnant and I feel very unhealthy. I am losing weight. It's coming off slowly but I've lost approx. 30lbs since Oct. of 2010. I've been eating a lot of fruit this summer, though I haven't made much process in cutting out the junk. Still I have never felt worse. I started smoking a little over a year ago. At the time I told myself that I was so stressed out it was either pick up this nasty habit or get on some anti-anxiety meds. It sounds stupid when I say it now. But my smoking has increased which doesn't help my health, nor my checking account. My sleep pattern is crazy. I'll go from sleeping 4 hours to sleeping 10 to staying up for over 24 hours, and my coffee intake doesn't make it any easier. My eating habits have altered a lot as well. Sometimes I'll barely pick at things all day (fruit, yogurt, soup) till about midnight, that's when I'll get home from work, then I'll eat something heavy and in too great a quantity right up till I go to bed. I wake up in the morning feeling exhausted and sluggish, there is a dull ache in my head and my body is stiff and sore. I wonder if a lot of that comes from my sedentary life style. My job is at a desk. I spend a lot of time in the car. I have a gym membership I do not use. I don't get out and take walks, I spend my down time watching T.V. or movies, and reading. That's about it. Seriously I am boring myself just talking about my life.
I really need to start setting some goals. My life feels very non-goal oriented at the moment and I believe everyone should have something they are striving to achieve in their life. We should always have something to strive for or else we lose that oomph that gets us out of bed in the morning. I have lost that along the way somewhere. I used to imagine all the things I would do when I was in high-school. I have always loved learning new skills, especially those that tapped into the corner of my brain I reserve for all creativity and imagination, but I have become lazy and un-ambitious and afraid. Afraid to try new things, to put myself out there. Afraid I might fail. Afraid I might succeed. Afraid that while discovering myself I might not like what I find. Sorry, got a little deep there. Quite a contrast to my blog entry title, no?
My point is that I need to start setting goals and determining to complete them. I need to stop making excuses, Lord knows I got them in stuffed in every nook and cranny ready to pull out when convenient. My first goal is to get active. I need to move more, get the blood flowing. I swear that sometimes I can almost feel my blood stagnating, turning in to pancake batter in my veins. I'm 26. My heart should be beating with the "joie de vivre" of youth.
So... Goal #1: Get Active. Do something physical everyday, whether it is a trip to the gym, walking the dog, gardening or yard work, a hike in the park, running around with the niece and nephew. Anything to make the blood flow, the muscles flex, the heart beat faster. I am going to blog later this week and keep account of my goals and what I am doing to achieve them.