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old me vs new me

Saturday, August 06, 2011

I am starting to feel a bit like Sybil...like therre are two personalities inside of me. This is never more evident than when I am working out. I hear the old me telling me to stop...it is too hard..I am going to DIE!!!! But then the new me kicks in and shuts her up, tells me I CAN do this and to KEEP GOING. I read a post this morning about the head catching up with the body, and I truly don't know if that will happen for me. i walk through the kitchen and fat me see the debbie cakes and ALMOST reach for it,but the new me slaps her hand and reminds her of all the work I have done and how far I have come. I think the fat girl will always be there, but the new me is just going to have to smack her down, lay her out, land a couple pile drivers and knock her out.

As I have said in a previous blog music is hugely motivational for me. The song "Everlong" has a line that says "The only thing I'll ever ask of you...you gotta promise not to stop when I say when" is so true for me right now. Fat me wants to say when. This is a thin as I have ever been, and going beyond this point is a bit scary for fat me, but new me is excited and looking forward to it. When fat me wants to stop running, new me thinks about how HOT I will be and doesn't stop even though old me is SCREAMING when. This is a promise I make to myself, to not quit this time, to not give up, to not stop when I say when (except at the table)
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  • v BITTYGIRL51
    Excellent insights. Remembe the old cartoons where the little angel was sitting on on shoulder and the little devil was sitting on the other one? The angel is prodding you to do the right thing and the little devil is prodding you to do the wrong thing? LOL

    It's a journey, and you are doing an excellent job of traveling it one day, one bite, one thought at a time! Kudos! emoticon
    1847 days ago
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