Friday, August 05, 2011
So Fridays have been my weigh-in days for the past year and a half. But after last week's weigh-in, over the weekend I decided to stop weighing myself every week. I'm not going to weigh again until December, and maybe I won't want to then. We'll see.
But I really wanted to weigh myself this morning. I was just curious to see how I did this week. But the truth is, I already KNOW how I did. I know exactly how much exercise I got, and I know exactly how I ate. And apart from eating a little too much leftover from a birthday cake and ice cream, I did really well. I haven't binged in 6 days, haven't even had the urge to binge in those 6 days, which is AWESOME, and I ate when I was hungry and didn't eat too much to get full. And the thing I realized this morning was that this week was a livable week.
I'm trying to get to the place where I don't have to stress or obsess over food and exercise, I just eat what my body wants and how much it wants, eat lots of fruits/veggies, drink lots of water, and exercise often because my body feels good during/afterward, and not because I force myself to do it, but because I want to. And that's pretty much how I was this week.
So as I was going back and forth over "should I weigh? no i shouldn't..well maybe I should, to see how this 'livable' week affected my weight,etc..." I realized that the scale might not truly reflect this. The truth is that the scale can be affected by so many factors, and what if I went on the scale and I had gained, or stayed the same? I would be discouraged that if I live this same way from now on, I wouldn't lose any weight. But the truth is that if I listen to my body and eat appropriate amounts of food, and get regular exercise (like I did this week), I will lose weight. My body isn't designed to be in the overweight BMI, and it isn't designed to have all this extra fat. So I am going to be monitoring my progress by making weekly goals for myself, as well as taking measurements monthly, and of course, by how my clothes are fitting. Because I feel it's more important to know how far/fast I was able to run at the end of summer than to know the exact weight I was at the end of summer.
I know different people have different thoughts about the scale/weighing, but my personal opinion is that I would like to ditch it for good eventually and just be able to live happily and healthily.