Wednesday, August 03, 2011
I've missed SP sooooo much!
Had an internet issue and couldn't spark like I wanted to (NEEDED to) over the last month .
Great lesson: Support, Information, and Accountability are CRUCIAL to living a healthy lifestyle...for me, that is. About a week after I stopped logging in, I started sloooowly going back to my old ways. And now that I'm sparking again, I'm sloooowly making my way back to my NEW ways :-)
And a curious thing happened...I seem to have lost 30 pounds at some point...
As I said, I'm not really into weighing myself regularly, but every so often I get on the scale at Publix. Well, the last time I did this was in June. I noticed that I had lost a few pounds. Tonight I did it again and I was STUNNED ( I just stood there expecting the needle to keep moving up)... so much so that I won't even let myself believe it until I can go back to the SAME Publix and use the SAME scale that I weighed myself on before.
One reason it's so hard to accept is b/c these last 2 weeks have actually been my WORST since I started making efforts towards a healthier lifestyle. I started eating fast food a few days ago and I haven't been exercising...I was definitely on my way towards a relapse. Also, I don't SEE it in the mirror, but based on what I read from other successful people, I guess that's normal.
Anyway, getting on that scale tonight was SUCH a blessing. It was well-needed encouragement and a sign that the changes I've made will actually pay off, even if I have some down times. I'm glad that my goal is LONG TERM (Summer 2012) so that I won't get discouraged or beat myself up for being off track some weeks. I'm so glad I got on that scale and saw that my effort hasn't been in vain!
It actually doesn't matter what the number is though b/c, even if I didn't lose as much as the scale says I did, the MENTAL effect has already taken place: I'M BACK ON THE HORSE.