Tuesday, August 02, 2011
Over the last several days I have thought about what my personal goal is for me in weight loss is. Now to be honest I have had a lot of hard things happen in my life. In those hard places I used food for comfort. I am an emotional eater. I have eaten from pain. I've eaten from a lonely place, from anger and from sadness. Now today after my very HARD therapy session guess where I ate from? No where. I didn't have the need to eat. In my journey to better physical, mental and emotional health I have learned not to eat from those places as it only makes you fat and miserable. I have learned to talk about my feelings instead of shoving food down my throat to cover up the pain. I am so proud of how far I have come on this journey. So here is where my goal comes in. I would love to step up my weight lifting to a whole new place. I want to define my body in a bigger way. As I have told my best bud Dennis I want defined abs...a killer butt...guns and a smoking hot body. I would also like to share my life story through pictures of how far I have come. I would like to talk about how my very abusive childhood made me fat and miserable. I would also like to talk about how my rotten marriage did the same thing. Then explain how God and therapy helped me to get to a better, healthier happier place. I would love to put this together in book form. Now this goal I have asked God to help me with. I would love to see this thing happen. Mostly for my own personal healing journey. I am so darn proud of how far I have come and I want others to see that they can do it too. So that's my goal.