Tuesday, August 02, 2011
I guess I have come a long way because I am not beating myself up.
I rolled by ankle back in the middle of May and broke it. Which of course lead me to be on crutches for almost 4 weeks. Ha, I had to go and break my right ankle too, which is located on the "good" side of my body. I have a left sided radiculopathy and a left side SI joint dysfunction, all the result of an injury I susbstained from an on the job injury twenty years ago, has it really been that long, 1991, yup 20 years. Unbelievable. So, as I was saying I was on crutches for almost 4 weeks, which did a number on my left hip (the SI joint dysfunction), during the 4 weeks I put the hip out several times, which lead to a great deal of pain in the hip and low back spasms. I basically ended up sitting all the time with my ankle elevated above my heart, changing out heating pads on my hip and back and trying to stay in a position where the pain in the hip wasn't driving me to distraction - of course because of this I felt absolutely no pain in my ankle, which the doctor said probably worked to my benefit.
Now I am out of the walking cast and trying to get active again, I feel tired and weak. I fell back into some bad habits while I was on crutches, the diet coke addition came back on strong, because I could put a can in my pocket and hobble back to the chair without having to call the five year old and worry about her spilling hot tea and possibly burning herself as she carried it to the table for me. I stopped taking my supplements - which probably lead to more pain. I started taking them again yesterday and I have already notice a drop in my pain level.
Of course the weather isn't helping we get one sunny day and then an overcast day. I am sitting here with the space heater on because it is only 65 degrees down here in the office (and it is August 2). I know I shouldn't complain most of the country is seeing unusually high temps. Triple digits and I should count my blessings that I am having to put a sweat jacket on to prevent myself from shivering. I have always thought it was easier to warm up than it is too cool down. I have been trying to motavate myself to spend more time in the yard, hubby and I did go purchase more plants for the holes in the garden that developed over the winter, but everything is running at least two weeks if not three weeks because of the cool temps and the mess the moles are making in the yard is sort of depressing me.
So as I lay in bed last night clearing my charkas and feeling my bodies energy fall back into a balanced alignment I realized even with all these set backs in the last two and half to three months I haven't berated myself once. That is something to be proud of - now I just have to rebuild my stamina, get the muscles in my ankle restrengthened and stretched out. Its funny now that it is all over I am now feeling pain in the lower leg and it is muscular. But this too will pass and I will get back on the paved portion of the road and get on with my weight loss, its just annoying to have to relose the weight.
There must have been an easier way of learning this lesson than breaking my ankle - but then again I might not have listened otherwise.