Tuesday, August 02, 2011
I've been eatting healthy most days of the week, but for the last 9 months the weekend comes and I settle into my husbands bad eatting -I try to go places with him and do a few things he likes to try to get us closer. The sharing the bad eatting seems to help our relationship but ruins my good efforts and then I go overboard with the bad attitude that oh well i guess if i'm blowing it-then find as many things that i try to limit normaly and cram as much possible down-feeling sick by bedtime. ( I think I'm punishing myself for bad eatting-but don't get why I feel the need to always hurt myself) so the viscious cycle continues and on mon the dreaded scale and facing the fact of my damage. by thur I'm feeling better about myself with very good intentions for the weekend. on fri, I talk to myself all day and tell myself I'm going to be good and in an instant i'm eatting unhealthy. I would love to get some counciling to try to sort this madness out, but even with insurance I simply can't afford it. any suggestions for a weekend binger????