“In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure”
~ Bill Cosby
Easier said than done Mr. Cosby. Everybody has fears, some more than others and some more severe than others. Anyone who said they are afraid of nothing is not being honest with themselves – IMO.
For me, I am learning that one of my worst fears is Atychiphobia- the fear of failure. It has held me back from things for years, and continues to have a grip on me to this day. I think this is why I have been procrastinating and making excuses for not running lately. I am afraid that I will fulfill the predictions of those who said that I can’t run. Or I am too big to run. Or my knees and ankles can’t support me. I hear this negativity from so long ago repeating in my head and I believe it.
I know I WANT to run. I also know I am afraid of the work it will take to do it. I am afraid that even if I give it 100%, I will still come up short. I suppose it is my own self-imposed comfort zone. In my head, it is easier to just be satisfied with losing all this weight rather than be disappointed in underachieving.
So how do I get past this? How do I help myself believe that I CAN DO THIS, and many other things? I read from other runners that most of running is mental. Now I can understand that. While I am sure my legs could keep propelling me forward, my head will kick in and pull the caution card. What if I fall and break something? What if I try super-de-dooper hard and still can’t make it? What if all the “I told you so’s” turn out to be right?
At least I am not alone in the world of fears. It seems there is a scientific confusing name for almost any fear these days. Here is a sampling of my fears from a Phobia list online:
Aichmophobia- Fear of needles.
Apiphobia- Fear of bees.
Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed.
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces.
Coulrophobia – Fear of clowns.
Enissophobia- Fear of criticism.
Gelotophobia- Fear of being laughed at.
Glossophobia- Fear of speaking in public.
Kakorrhaphiophobia- Fear of failure or defeat.
Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight.
Ophidiophobia- Fear of snakes.
Ponophobia- Fear of overworking or of pain.
Trypanophobia- Fear of injections.
Perhaps I should have a Nike’s “Just Do It” tattooed across the top of my foot or something!
Alas, 181 days until the marathon. I need to block everything else out and just focus…