So don't know if anyone noticed.. well i know Carly did..but Ive kinda been m.i.a. for awhile. I've had so much going on and like usual when things get tough i put myself on the back burner and worry about everything and everyone else. Cant believe i went almost 2 months without being on here. Well it showed on the scale too..I had gained back at least 10 pounds. I know its from stress and not exercising. I told myself i had 2 weeks to at least get back to the weight i was before all this craziness before i left for the wedding and I did it. Yea im not at my goal weight like i wanted to be for the wedding but i have to keep telling myself. Self.. you have lost 29 pounds and for the most part you have kept it off. Be proud of what you have done and know that we are not done yet. Now my pep talk doesn't always work and evil Kim shows up to say you failed Kim you didn't hit your goal..your going to look huge standing next to your teeny sister in front of everyone and people are just going to point and compare. This is the Kim i daily battle with and no wonder i eat for comfort and sit on the couch instead of get up and move..shes not nice. When im here on SP i feel like i can do what i set out to do and so no matter what comes up I have to make a promise to myself to stay on here and fight for myself. Promise me yall will keep me in check because sometimes i feel like i need help fighting Evil Kim...
On a positive note..my little nephew is now 10 months and Ive only gotten to see him 2 times. I'm 1000000000% jumping out of my skin excited to spend time with him. I will get to see all of my family at the wedding and the love of y life will get to meet the rest of the family he hasn't gotten to meet yet. There are so many positive things happening this week yet i focus on the negative. Pray i can keep my chin up and feel proud of what Ive done rather than self conscience while standing up next to my sister. I'll post pictures when I can...
Always feel good to vent on here..