I'm a loser! And I like it :)
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Well I'm two and a half months into this journey they call "lifestyle change" and I couldn't be happier. I am down 13.6 lbs as of today. This is not my original goal for this time line, but I am very, very happy with this number. I have had my ups and downs during the time that I have been back on Sparkpeople and I can honestly say that I have learned A LOT!
I started out weighing everything. It was eye opening to really know what a serving looked like. I started losing weight and all was good, until it wasn't. I was on a plateau for 3 weeks losing and gaining the same 1 lbs over and over again. So I stopped weighing my food. I stopped worrying so much - it was stressing me out and making me feel like I was failing. This did not mean that I went back to mindless eating or eating a bunch of food that I knew wasn't going to help. And for me, it worked. The next week I was down 2lbs and it's been going down since then.
I know that I could lose the weight faster if I worked out more/harder/longer, cut more calories out, but in the end it doesn't matter how fast it comes off, it matters that I make a change that encourages my body to be leaner, healthier, and crave the good stuff, not the bad stuff. For me, that means taking it slow. In 11 weeks I have averaged just over a lb/week - and that is awesome! In 11 weeks I have made a change; I make better decisions, I don't eat when I'm bored, I am more emotionally stable, I am more physically fit then I have been for a year, and I am proud.
I could not have come this far with out the support of this website and all the amazing people that are here. I found a sense of belonging because I wasn't the only one that was struggling. I was no longer standing on my own Island of weight loss with no rescue in sight. Together, within this community, I learned how to rescue myself and I felt the shared joy from everyone here, even those I have never spoken to or shared comments on a board post. We are all in this together, not one of us stands alone. I thank each and everyone of you who read this blog, and I thank each and every person that doesn't. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for helping me find myself. You are all amazing and beautiful people.