Saturday, July 30, 2011
I have finally come to the conclusion that I am addicted to sweets. I cannot even have a bite of something without going and testing every sweet I have in the house. This is so embarrassing to admit - I lose control when I start eating sweets. I can even eat them to the point of feeling sick - a binging of types.
Because of my addiction, my weight loss has been haphazard at best and non-existent at worst. I am glad that I feel free now to speak out about my addiction and start addressing the core issues behind it.
1. Lack of self esteem - I am not worth being healthy, slender.
2. Lack of self control - I'll eat what I want and start eating right tomorrow.
3. Poor self image - Who cares what I look or feel like - I don't.
4. Self depreciation - There is no way I can control what I eat - I'm not strong enough.
This vicious cycle begins a downward spiral of helpless depression that I am so tired of living in. I am ready to break out of it and start my journey back to health and joy in living!!!
So with excitement and joy I face the coming challenge. I have been off sugar and white flour foods for five days now and my body is thanking me as is my soul! I feel strong and ready to keep addressing the issues in my life daily.