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Friday, July 29, 2011

i just read my last blog entry on here and all i can say is wow...alot has happened since then...ive learned alot but im certainly still not where i need 2 b as far as God being 1stin my heart but i am trying. 7/6/11 made 2 yrs since ricky left. 7/7/11 i filed for divorce. 7/21/11 it was final. hard but had 2 b done. i didnt keep vic out of my life for long. but the beginning of may 2011 i hurt him really bad because of the going back n forth between him n ricky and he had enough. he walked away. i broke his heart. : (
he still talked 2 my kids everyday but refused 2 talk to me. he told my son the only way hed ever speak 2 me again was if i got a divorce and it was final... 7/21/11 he started talking to me again. i dont know what will happen in the future im doing my best to leave it up to God. i do know that letting ricky go made me see how much i love vic. it took being on my own to start taking care of myself again. i had gained about 25 lbs back in a 10 month period of time. my parents got me a punching bag for my birthday in april. i started kickboxing and i love it. it helped me let out all i was keeping inside. now im 1 pound below my lowest weight after surgery. 208 lbs. i have 2 lbs 2 lose 100 lbs. i quit smoking almost a month ago and i feel im in the best shape of my life. im starting to see definition and feel muscles under the fat. lol. im happy where im at with my body i know im headed somewhere finally. headed to my goal. i still gotta work on my relationship with God. but i will get there. well thats about it for catching up on whats happened since i was on here last. : )
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    Wow! You HAVE been busy! But, I can say that I am so proud to even know you via spark right now! Reading through your blogs (ok, I was AWOL for awhile and had to catch up), I couldn't help but be inspired. I know it had to be difficult letting go of your relationship with Ricky, but I'm extra glad you are leaving yourself open to new love. . .

    Rock on girl!
    2387 days ago
    way to go girl!! It is great to see you back......100lbs you rock!!
    2395 days ago
    I love you girl and I'm so proud of how far you've come with your weight but even more so with everything else. Thank God that he is the God of 2nd, 3rd, 4th etc. chances! Remember that he's given you all you need to succeed and live the life he created you to live. That life is not the life you may have lived in the past but its the life you can live now and in the future. Keep him first and it'll all fall into line. =0) He never said it'd be easy, but it WILL be worth it!
    2397 days ago
    Each day is a new day! Sounds like you are on your way to true healing! That's awesome.
    Congratulations on your weight loss and stopping smoking! That's so great. Enjoy this day and every day! Nadine emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2397 days ago
    Good to see you back~ You are a champion!
    2398 days ago
    Remember that God doesn't wait for us to get our act together before he loves us enough to lay down his life for us. God loves you, in fact he adores you, right now. You are beloved and precious in his sight.

    Every choice that you make every day is part of your stewardship. The care you give your body is one way that you tell God that you appreciate the incredible, complex, magnificent, and beautiful machine that God has given you. Care of your body is your offering of thanks.

    You and I are still going to make choices that are less than ideal. We are occasionally going to lounge on the couch when we ought to be working out. We are going to eat the fries. It happens. But that doesn't undo every offering of thanks we have already given. God is ready to accept our repentance and encourage us back on the path to health.

    We really have been designed by a magnificent designer. The steps we take toward health are rewarded naturally, by improvements in our mood, more energy, less disease, and fewer long term aches and pains (bad knees, bad backs). Sure, there are some short term aches and pains, but they are so worth it.

    May you be blessed in your journey!
    2398 days ago
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