Thursday, July 28, 2011
I am not a blogger. I don't like to write. But I came to the realization that I need to do this perhaps. I will write as if no one else is reading. This will be my therapy. If I'm typing, I'm not eating!
I am ready to lose the weight. I know it will be hard work. Everytime I've set out to do this, I feel so deprived of not being able to eat like everyone else around me. I build in a day a week to cheat and eat what I want. I don't gorge. I just have that ice cream cone with the kids or have a snack I've been craving or maybe it's girls night out or dinner with the hubby. I have to say that I've always managed to lose weight every week even with that cheat day. I did stick to the program the rest of the week. Now that I'm 46, I'm finding it's harder to lose the weight. 2009 I did Nutrasystem. It was good in that it got me to see proper proportions but the food sucked! I didn't eat sometimes because the entrees were that bad! I did lose 19 pounds and in almost 3 months time. My goal was to be a decent weight when we went on a grand trip for two weeks out west. The picture on my profile is from that trip. That was an ok weight but I really wanted to be 15 lbs less than that.
I have to start thinking differently about food. I really enjoy food. I like to cook for my family. It's a treat for me to not have to cook and eat out too. In my head, food is a reward and that's my folly. I realize this now. It's an easy comfort when I'm
tired or down or feeling lonesome.
I want to change my bad habits. I stay up late, watch tv, snack. I can do great most of the day and then botch it up late in the day. I will give up soda. I will give up late night tv and snacking. Instead, I will go up to bed with my hubby and read a book. Reading is a great pleasure to me as well. I will try. Minute by minute I wil try. I will close now so that I can go take the dog for a walk.
Today is a new day.