Wednesday, July 27, 2011
BALF if the noise I make when I look in the mirror and see what I've done to myself again. I've gone up and down the scale a few more times, but mostly I've been up. I believe I'm only about 1-5 pounds "overweight" by the official scale, but I know that I have been eating poorly and drinking lots of alcohol and not exercising, and now I feel flabby and I look flabby. I can do better. I feel best when I'm at about 150, which is right smack in the middle (okay, slightly on the lower side) of what is considered a healthy weight range for my height. I'm "supposed to be" anywhere from about 145-165. I really, really prefer 150 on me. At that weight I have a lot less flopping around. I get to wear clothes because I like them, not because of what they hide and disguise. I know I feel great when I'm dieting and exercising, so why do I always find excuses to stop? What reward am I getting, other than instant gratification, for the overeating and the drinking?