Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I made a decision during my walk/jog this morning.
A little background first: Last night I ran smack dab into a much needed reality check. I spoke with my jazz teacher about taking the intermediate/advanced level this year (the class I'm currently taking this summer) and the bottom line is - he thinks I'm not ready and I would, reluctantly, have to agree. He plans to take this group to "the next level," and with my weight, leaping is difficult, if not dangerous. I am also struggling to do a decent single pirouette consistently (in part because I've not been doing outside cross-training to strengthen my legs so that my releves are solid) and most of this group is working on doubles. I have a feeling that when I talk to my Lyrical instructor, he's going to say the same thing.
So what does all this have to do with a morning decision? I have decided to restart my Spark weight at my current weight. I don't know if it was a memeber blog or a Slowest Loser blog where I read about someone suggesting this. At the time I thought, who would do this? I mean I want a record of every single pound I've sweated off. But I think right now, it's holding me back. I find myself saying "Look how far you've come! It's okay if you don't plan meals this week or that you don't leave yourself enough time to Spark daily."
But I just can't completely give up having a record of where I started
237 - that was it on June 21, 2010. But from today, it's 215.6; I don't think of it as starting over or starting fresh because I promised myself this time it would be a journey not a stop/start. Let's just say "New day, New goals."
This set-back in my dancing goals was just the kick I needed to get me moving again towards a holistic lifestyle change. I've been in a holding pattern for quite some time (eh - who am I kidding - a gaining pattern
). It got me up at 5:30 to walk jog in my neighborhood, had me meal planning better for today and got me back in to write this down. So all in all - a real positive (now if I could only nail those darned single pirhouettes!)