Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Have you ever felt like you don't know what's worse... the sickness or the cure? That's kinda how I feel now & then.
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision last year by moving. Not that I am not overwhelmingly pleased about my current place... because I am. It's better than anything I ever had in my own mind... but then God has a tendency to do that when you keep faith.
The thing is, I miss a certain someone... a lot... even though we made each other nuts.
Plus I miss my doggie. And, worse than missing him, is the stress that I have over trying to find a place for him to live. I don't want to have him put-down just because of lack of a place for him to live. When the time comes I would like to think he will either die of natural causes or I will have him put down due to illness. But to end his life over living arrangements would probably kill me too. I, really, would never allow myself to own another dog if that happened.
Anyway, I guess I have to take my own advice and keep faith. God will help my baby... and somehow he will either help my heart let go of this guy, or he will turn it into something good.
I just had to get all that stuff out right now. If I sound like I'm rambling it's because I am. Thanks for listening Sparkers. You guys are awesome. Oh, and thanks for helping with the great response on my Worship Melodies blog site lately. It really means sooooo much to me!