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The Cause vs. The Cure

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Have you ever felt like you don't know what's worse... the sickness or the cure? That's kinda how I feel now & then.

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision last year by moving. Not that I am not overwhelmingly pleased about my current place... because I am. It's better than anything I ever had in my own mind... but then God has a tendency to do that when you keep faith.

The thing is, I miss a certain someone... a lot... even though we made each other nuts.

Plus I miss my doggie. And, worse than missing him, is the stress that I have over trying to find a place for him to live. I don't want to have him put-down just because of lack of a place for him to live. When the time comes I would like to think he will either die of natural causes or I will have him put down due to illness. But to end his life over living arrangements would probably kill me too. I, really, would never allow myself to own another dog if that happened.

Anyway, I guess I have to take my own advice and keep faith. God will help my baby... and somehow he will either help my heart let go of this guy, or he will turn it into something good.

I just had to get all that stuff out right now. If I sound like I'm rambling it's because I am. Thanks for listening Sparkers. You guys are awesome. Oh, and thanks for helping with the great response on my Worship Melodies blog site lately. It really means sooooo much to me!

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    Thank you soooo much. You guys never fail to amaze me at how awesome humanity can be sometimes. You are all beautiful examples of it.

    It seems, as of today, that I have a place for my doggie to live... until God changes things so that I can bring him home with me where he belongs (I NEVER give up hope or prayer about that!). My Mom has a friend that lives outside of town, about 45 minutes from here. She's a widow and has a little dog of her own. She said she is very interested; especially since it won't cost her anything. I will continue to pay for his food and expenses. We will go see her this weekend. I won't get to see him often, but I truly believe that God has a plan to reunite me and my baby. My Mom's friend is a very loving woman and I would trust her with my baby any time.
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    Comment edited on: 7/27/2011 2:32:56 PM
    Send me your doggie if all else fails. I have two shih tzus for playmates.
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  • MISSLISA1973
    emoticon We considered moving once where we would have to get rid of my doggie. It was killing me just to think of it. I can only imagine what you're going through. Those doggies sure know how to steal our hearts! emoticon
    2430 days ago
    As far as missing the guy... it is up to you to 'retrain your brain' to put him in the past. He was not good for you, and you deserve someone good in your life. Focus on finding a positive relationship and let go of the past harmful ones.
    2430 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/17/2014 8:46:19 PM
    I can relate.. I am not strong enough to separate, but dh makes me very unhappy and I feel worthless much of the time. I hope you are able to make the right decisions and live with them. Remember God will not give us more than we can handle.
    2430 days ago
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