Monday, July 25, 2011
ok. so this is my very first blog entry, and it couldn't come at a worse (or better) time. i've only been a member of SparkPeople for about 4 days and for the first 3 i was doing great and then today...tragedy struck.
i ate a load of crap and at the end of my...raid on all things cookies and soda...i can at least somewhat pleasantly say that i feel like crap. i feel bloated, i feel tired, i feel...
who would've known that after just 3 days of conciously making better choices, on just the 4th day, when i let it all go out the window, i would be feeling so yucky about it?
i usually can pack away an entire package of my favorite cookies in a single day. i've had these particular ones since saturday, so it took me 3 days this time. not bad...3 days to pack away almost 30 cookies, and my husband had a handful too. something that would take me again...a few hours to do before. and i can also say that i feel sick. i'm a bit embarassed i suppose for doing it (all the while saying "oh boy my nutrition tracker isn't going to report good numbers tonight!!!"). honestly, writing this blog is giving me the courage to face my nutrition tracker. this is the reason i even started the blog.
so today, i ate about 12 cookies. *sigh* that number is horrid. and i drunk about...24 ounces of coca cola. probably a bit more than that. and i feel like a bloated mess.
now. i am writing this blog at this time to give myself some introspective ability. i know that i have my trigger foods. and cookies are one. but the soda? i'm not really an avid soda fan anymore. it feels entirely too sugary in my mouth, and it only serves to make me thirstier! i haven't had a good guzzle of soda in about 2 weeks...and i notice that even then, i only drank soda because it was all that was offered.
my drink of choice is seltzer.
it just so happens, that i don't have any seltzer.
i knew today when i woke up and took my last swig of the deliciously carbonated water that i was headed towards trouble if i didn't get any more. *sigh* and i didn't have the usual 1.50 to purchase a quick 2 liter bottle. so...i went for the only other carbonated drink i had...coca cola.
the cookies, i knew would be a problem for me. the soda, i didn't think.
well...at least i was able to admit how i'm feeling to my personal blog. i can be 100% honest and say had it not been for this site, i probably would've given up after cookie #9, and swig #4, but because it's so encouraging and refreshing to know that everyone slips up and it's no reason to quit...i don't much feel like quitting. i feel like doing better tomorrow.
and i'm *almost* ready to face my nutrition tracker tonight and tell it the honest truth.