Monday, July 25, 2011
Fell off the wagon in mid Spring just a week or so after I felt so happy that some jeans were fitting well. I had to move my whole household and it all started with my treadmill being gone, then the tracking went to the wayside .. . Gained all the weight back plus another 5. Most I've weighed in about 8 or 9 years - ouch! Trying not to beat myself up and just start again. Sparkpeople was a great way to go and I felt really good about it so here I am.
Starting over is a big bummer, but I do believe that I learned something. Basically I cannot stop tracking for a very long time into the future. Once I stopped the daily program the food slipped in (really fast) and stayed on. I've been reading some posts about the thought of having to track forever and it just may be that is what I have to do. I guess its a bit like a drug addict having to walk the walk everyday in fear of a relapse. I also felt that tracking was making me feel obsessive - just trading one obsession for another. But the good thing about this obsessiveness is that it'll do me good. Trying not to feel blue.