Monday, July 25, 2011
You know the divorce trial is ugly, things were ugly and I had my come apart moments with it all, but its almost the beggining to the end here. I met some new friends at the gym, out of the gym and now I have to focus on me which I never do. This is my journey. I learned who I can count on and whom I cant. I can count on myself though. I have to give myself credit about being strong and alone. I learned to fix things alone. I guess that is the hard part. Each day is a new challenge but you go foward and do things with it, and you go forward and try and think about what you really want, and for me its not materialism its happiness and love, and I think one day I will have that when I quit looking for it. Meanwhile its time to redirect focus on myself and be a little selfish. I have learned that just because your suffering inside doesnt mean you cant help others.