Sunday, July 24, 2011
I am a motivated and ambitious person. I have a wonderful personal life, and that's what's most important to me. However, I really do want to succeed in my career, too.
I have had a less-than-perfect first year in law school. I've done above-average, but not stellar. I am interested in some competitive jobs, and while I know I still have a chance at them (there are two more years, after all), I feel sad about not having done a perfect job first year. Law school awards all its internal prizes on the basis of first year. I know I need to do research into what is needed for my chosen career and continue to work hard and try to achieve at the level necessary to get there. But I feel very heartbroken. I was a real achiever in college and high school. The fact that I have failed to distinguish myself in the first year of law school will influence the rest of my career, and every time I process that fact, I feel unspeakably awful.
This won't impact my weight management goals. In fact, my healthy habits will hopefully help me deal with this crisis. I actually think I want to work harder at working out and eating right so I can have it as a stress-reliever and an alternate source of focus and self-confidence. I want to do more yoga to help with self-affirmation.