It's Not You, It's Me

Sunday, July 24, 2011

It's been about a month since my last post, and a couple weeks since I last logged onto Spark. My exercise and eating habits have fallen by the wayside and yet again, I find myself starting over -- however, I'm not considering it a total loss, since I've caught myself before things became too out of hand.

So what's up with the title of this post? Well, to be honest, lately I feel sort of put down when I log onto Spark, instead of inspired and motivated like I usually am. It has nothing at all to do with you all -- everyone on Spark IS great and totally motivating, but it's me. I've been on Spark for a couple years now and I always end up declining someway or another. So I've decided to try something else. Instead of pressuring myself to write blog posts everyday, or log in everyday, or trying to calculate and log everything I do/eat on SP, I'm going to take a step back and focus on the bigger picture. Don't get me wrong, I love Spark and it has helped me through some tough times, but I think it's time for me to actually focus on ME -- not on making sure I keep up the perfect profile and dozens of streaks/goals I've set for myself.

I guess you can say the pressure has gotten to me -- but instead of letting it take hold of me and make me feel like a failure, I'm going to step back now while I still have fond memories of Spark. Note: I am NOT quitting Spark or deleting my account or never logging back on. But I am taking a little break and will not be on as often. I don't know if this is the right route to go, but like I said, I've tried Spark multiple times and it's time to try something new. Who knows, I might get my spark back next week and be back on everyday! But I'm not holding myself to anything except happiness, which I know I will always deserve.

Lots of love and happy sparking to everyone!
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  • SHEILA234
    Take care of yourself --- and do what is best for you! Hopefully it will work out for you to come back to Spark at some future point ... we will miss you ... but you need to do what is best for you. Take care! Sheila emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2245 days ago
    I wish you all the best. Perhaps it is time for a break.... when anything becomes a chore it is less effective. I hope you find your stride, Pink Lady! Good luck!
    2309 days ago
    I hope it works out for you. Do what is best and feels right to you and the rest will fall into place.
    2309 days ago
    You do what is good for you and what helps you and what works. This is all about YOU. But remember we are always here for support. Wishing you the best.
    2309 days ago
    Good Luck and I think everyone agrees that do what you have to do to live healthy whether it be being on SP everyday or taking a step back.
    2310 days ago
    Yeah, when you're not in the mood for Spark its strongly positive attitude can come off as kind of annoying. Hehe.
    2310 days ago
    I know exactly how you feel. I too have done this. I don't log my food or all my exercise and I don't worry any more about making sure that I keep my streaks going, because it was too much pressure. I use spark to keep me focused; remind myself that I am not alone in this. I comment when I am moved to and don't when I am not. I haven't written a blog in ages and I never comment randomly on other people's spark pages. For me, it has worked. I have continued to lose weight, make healthy eating choices, work out when I can, and when it all comes down in the end - this is the lifestyle change. Spark won't always be there for you when you need support, but you will always be there for you. Good luck and remember that when you need a lift - we will all be here for you!
    2310 days ago
    Best wishes!
    2310 days ago
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