It's Not You, It's Me
Sunday, July 24, 2011
It's been about a month since my last post, and a couple weeks since I last logged onto Spark. My exercise and eating habits have fallen by the wayside and yet again, I find myself starting over -- however, I'm not considering it a total loss, since I've caught myself before things became too out of hand.
So what's up with the title of this post? Well, to be honest, lately I feel sort of put down when I log onto Spark, instead of inspired and motivated like I usually am. It has nothing at all to do with you all -- everyone on Spark IS great and totally motivating, but it's me. I've been on Spark for a couple years now and I always end up declining someway or another. So I've decided to try something else. Instead of pressuring myself to write blog posts everyday, or log in everyday, or trying to calculate and log everything I do/eat on SP, I'm going to take a step back and focus on the bigger picture. Don't get me wrong, I love Spark and it has helped me through some tough times, but I think it's time for me to actually focus on ME -- not on making sure I keep up the perfect profile and dozens of streaks/goals I've set for myself.
I guess you can say the pressure has gotten to me -- but instead of letting it take hold of me and make me feel like a failure, I'm going to step back now while I still have fond memories of Spark. Note: I am NOT quitting Spark or deleting my account or never logging back on. But I am taking a little break and will not be on as often. I don't know if this is the right route to go, but like I said, I've tried Spark multiple times and it's time to try something new. Who knows, I might get my spark back next week and be back on everyday! But I'm not holding myself to anything except happiness, which I know I will always deserve.
Lots of love and happy sparking to everyone!