Saturday, July 23, 2011
Hi Spark friends.
What I like about this site is the no judgmental attitude of my spark friends and even strangers.
since my last blog, I have been trying to get back into the swings of things. My miscarriage I gained close to 30 pounds. I'm sure it was all water since they were twins. It's been seven weeks.
I've taken it slow. During these weeks,
- I've regained my love for exercise.
- I've have (almost) stopped my love affair with Coke soda.. I've switched it up to Diet Coke. In two weeks, I will completely stop.
What I have NOT done is weigh myself. Nor have I fully tracked all my calories. I'm not ready. I'm going to be completely honest with you. I'm not going to give you any excuses. It's not that I don't have the time ( I do. I have the Spark APP on my phone), it's not that I don't know what I'm eating ( oh yeah I do, and ENJOY IT), and it's not that I'm thinking the scale is wrong( it's not wrong, completely on Point!)
It's none of the above. I know full well what I'm doing, eating, and experiencing when it comes to my weight loss journey. And guess what, I'm totally owning it. I understand my body, my emotions, my doubts, my self confidence, or lack thereof.
And I'm working on it. I'm not blaming it on the miscarriage, the weather, my kids, my partner, my stupid landlord, my stupid coworkers.
It's ALL ME.
And I forgive myself every night and every day I change a small thing, not everything, and I give myself a hand for changing it. Saying no to that cookie, choosing water instead of soda. Leaving some food on the plate.
It's going to take a lifetime to change things and I'm ready for it.