Saturday, July 23, 2011
I am looking back at this journey I have made attempting to loose weight. I am pretty much back at square one right now. As I look back I can see where I fell off the wagon:
1. I quit smoking. This was a great moment in my life, I was a smoker for 20 years. I quit almost two years ago, and haven't smoked since.
2. Sprained ankle, in a boot for 3 months. Quit working out for this period.
3. When I don't get enough sleep and I am tired at night I start eating. I don't eat because I am stressed, I eat when I am over tired.
4. If I have a few drinks, I will eat anything. I have no will power what so ever.
As a therapist I spend a lot of time helping other people analyze and understand their behavior. So my advise to myself is:
1. Forgive yourself. Love yourself. I can't change the past here, I can only address the present moment. (although my Zen teacher would tell you that past, present, and future are all the same moment). In the present moment and in the future do your best to be a healthy and happy person.
2. Don't drink. An occasional drink is turning out to be deal breaker for me. If I have two glasses of wine, I will happily grab left over chocolate cake and a bag of chips (and even healthy, low fat PopChips have a lot of calories when you finish the bag!).
3. Get enough sleep! This is a very important part of being a healthy and happy human being.
4. I need to meditate every day. I struggle with impulse control and with self discipline. I loose all the will power to be healthy that I have the minute I loose any control over my mind (being over tired, having a drink or two). So it is time to strengthen my mind. My Zen practice needs to be an every day occurrence and not just 1 to 2 times a week at the Zen Center.
5. Keep trying. Failure is simply a part of success. As our Zen teacher says, these things exist in relationship to each other - without one the other does not exist.