A look back...
Saturday, July 23, 2011
I just re-read all my blogs from the begining and realized a huge trend...I would get on here and talk about how I was going to start my life anew and get back on track and blog the next day about how I failed. 8 days and I will head south and I will no longer have this person to blame. I may have others to blame but I have shared my concerns and think I will have support.
I have to do this. I have trouble breathing now, I can feel my hear pounding even when I am not doing anything, my stomach is unpredictable and hurts every day from vitamin deficiency and lack of muscle and movement. I am so unhappy here, all I can do is think about leaving but I am torn about leaving my family behind. I have to look at this like rehab...but now I am not sure how much time I will be given to achieve my goals. I need to hit this hard core.
I am becoming a statistic. 90-95% of people who lose weight gain it back....I am working on it everyday here. It needs to STOP!!!