Not Cut Out For This
Friday, July 22, 2011
Maybe I'm not cut out for this...THIS is the plan that has been set out before me. My heart is just heavy. I wanna tuck my tail & run, but I know I can't
Too many people depend on me. I CAN"T go back & I'm not just talking about my weight! I mean I REALLY CAN"T go back to my old habits, old lifestyle
. I know what has to be done. Being alone is one thing, but to actually have someone & FEEL alone is totally different on the mind. I just want to hideout for a few day, weeks, indefintely right now; BUT that is so not an option. I DON'T want to cry, but right now that is all I can do. I JUST CAN'T GO BACK. No do overs, no back tracking, no past emotions, NO NO NO. I'm going to have a major headache...then again, no I'm not. I WON'T claim.
I REBUKE YOU SATAN IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!
I WON'T have a heavy heart
I WON'T have sleepless nights
I WON'T feel alone
I have come to far to turn around....just not happy right now