Friday, July 22, 2011
Maybe I'm not cut out for this...THIS is the plan that has been set out before me. My heart is just heavy. I wanna tuck my tail & run, but I know I can't
Too many people depend on me. I CAN"T go back & I'm not just talking about my weight! I mean I REALLY CAN"T go back to my old habits, old lifestyle
. I know what has to be done. Being alone is one thing, but to actually have someone & FEEL alone is totally different on the mind. I just want to hideout for a few day, weeks, indefintely right now; BUT that is so not an option. I DON'T want to cry, but right now that is all I can do. I JUST CAN'T GO BACK. No do overs, no back tracking, no past emotions, NO NO NO. I'm going to have a major headache...then again, no I'm not. I WON'T claim.
I REBUKE YOU SATAN IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!
I WON'T have a heavy heart
I WON'T have sleepless nights
I WON'T feel alone
I have come to far to turn around....just not happy right now