Friday, July 22, 2011
Today I feel really good. I overcame my "un-normal" thinking to eat a bowl of honey bunches of oats cereal last night. My mind had started saying go get a bowl of cereal b/c you normally do at night time. I had told myself that I had already had a slice of cake after dinner and that was going to be my only dessert for the night. I must stop abusing food, even if it's just a bowl of cereal. It's that way of thinking that has controlled most of my life.
I was very proud that I did not give into the food or excessive snacking like I normally do when I get home from work. Instead, I went online for a bit & then did some cooking. I know this is going to be a process but I am open to it & ready to learn how to LIVE my LIFE. I am happy that I have joined a local support group here, think it's the best thing I've done.
I went my first day yesterday without feeling "Stuffed from FOOD". It was a very nice feeling. I was happy to have a normal day of eating & without Cherishing Food. I am starting with my thinking, my mind this time instead of just focusing on a number on the scale b/c I am realizing that if I can understand what's going on in my mind then the chips of everything else will fall into place like the losing weight. I realized that my battle or struggle with food is more than just losing weight or the scale but it's actually in my MIND.
So right now I am focusing on the simple things I can do daily while I work on getting a new frame of mind. Instead of taking the elevator I am taking the steps (going down & up), walking during my two 15 minute break times, just small things I can begin.
1 Day At A Time!
My thoughts for today are:
"I Want to EXPERIENCE Life Instead of GOING Through Life" ..... C. Wynn