Thursday, July 21, 2011
Had My Breaking Point & Joined a Support Group for my Food Addiction!! Ready to Live a Life Free of PAIN!!
This blog is going to be very serious and personal, heartfelt blog.
Well this past Monday evening (June 18)- I had a talk with my spouse about how I have truly lost my way. I have lost all power and control with FOOD. I told him that it was to the point I am honestly scared for my life. For the first time I admitted that my weight might be leading to serious health problems, problems I thought would never be an issue for me~ like high blood pressure & even possible diabetes.
I have been in denial and he looked at me and said "You can only FAKE IT for so long." At that moment I knew exactly what he meant without him saying another wood. He said "You need more than just an online support; you need to join a local support group." He was absolutely correct b/c Spark has a lot of good tools but I am not getting the support like I need. I realized I only get support from a handful of people who reach out to me out of the 400 (+) friends I have. So I realized that I need that local help, a support network right here in my town...
So on Tuesday, June 19th I joined a support group to regain power over my life mentally, spiritually, & emotionally. For once I am truly ready to have power and control over FOOD. I am happy that I have come out of denial & realized this problem is bigger than just me doing it on my own. I have tried for so long to do it on my own but not really wanting to admit that I seriously Addicted to FOOD. I need to learn how to no longer let FOOD control my thoughts, my feelings, & my emotional well-being. Some may understand what I am saying and some may not but those who do understand, than you know it's a life of Misery, Discomfort, Pain, Frustration, & Emptiness.
I am tired of living this way & the truth is I HAVE BEEN SCARED OF LIVING up until now my life has just been GOING!!! Yep, just GOING Through life but not actually LIVING LIFE!! I am going to learn how to overcome my Addiction to FOOD!! I am WORTH IT!! I refuse to live the rest of my life ADDICTED TO FOOD!! So now it's time to really get to bottom of why I have become addicted to food & what I need to do to lead a life FREE & NOT ADDICTED TO FOOD!!
A Sparker had a quote she said, that I had to write down (don't know if it's by an author):
"You will Make CHANGES YOU Need To When the PAIN of STAYING Where You are Becomes Greater than Your FEAR of CHANGE!!!"
That's a Powerful & True message!!! My Pain is too strong & I am no longer Fearing this battle with Food. I am accepting that there is another way of Living than what I am merely doing of just Going & Existing.
I am ready to let go of this Pain & Start a Life that offers Love, Happiness, True Control, Power over Self, Peace, & Living!!! I AM READY TO LIVE!!
Thanks for reading & listening, hope my openness & honesty can help someone else.